missing you..

there would come this moment where when i stop thinking of you, you tend to flood back into my mind like some sort of virus. there would come this time when i start thinking of you, you make my heart ache like pink prickling from the inside of it. why is it that i feel such way? why is it that my feelings are different from when i was in a relationship with another in the pass? i never felt such intensity with the person i was with before. i never missed him like i miss you. i don't ache from his absence. and when he returns from such absence, i don't jump in delight the way i do with you.

strange must i say? or is it just a confusion that my mind play with me?

i don't know what to agree with. i don't know whether it's wise for me to even feel this way. is it a mental state to ache for the presence of a partner? or do they call it love? funny, many love encounters have i thought were true but when it comes to you my darling, i couldn't say whether it's real. i couldn't say it's you that is the one. or rather i wouldn't? maybe i don't want to jinx you. maybe i want you to be such one that i refuse to think like i typically would with one that i like. but you're not just one to like. i love you. really? im uncertain. help. i need guidance. i don't know whether i want him as the one and well, i do now. i do always i think.

sweetheart, be gone all you want now and make my heart ache. make me crave and long for you and let me see how long this will last. if it's until the day you return, then most likely it is you that i want for always. gasping thought really. how could such young mind think so. how could such little creature know so. i dont know either. im lost. and i want your care because i've not had such from someone like you. as the last one was a heartbreaker. i wish you not be one. i wish you always be the one to bring smiles on my face. genuine smiles though. not one that daily sees on me. not one that friends entice on me. it's one that only a person with love like yours can bring. a love that bitter, sweet, strong, impatient, mad...perhaps that smile now.

be gone and let me miss you. let me see how long i can last. forever may bring good fortune to my heart as it means it's you i want. be gone now. loves from me...

Alvin Chacko's FUN 18th. HELL YEAH.

It was the day I would remember for life. :D [Don't perasan now Alvin]

Though it was a birthday of this boy named Alvin, whom I hardly know but spent his old age with him anyways because he's my friend's "......" HAHA - I honestly had a blast. It began on the morning of 14th May 2011...

I was meeting up with Brandon at Kelana Jaya station where he waited an hour for me just to take a 2 minutes trip to the following station - SORRY - and there's where Alvin the birthday boy went to pick us up before heading off to Reen's house. I know right. It's his effing birthday yet he's still the driver.

I FEEL REALLY BAD. LOL. (NOT) xD

After we arrived at Reen's, we spent a couple of minutes there, saying hello and goodbye to her parents and left for MidValley baby! :D Gawd, I remembered how Alvin teased me NON-STOP that day. What a day I had alright. He's such a bully. HEHE. Wait till I get you after this Alvin. GRR. Weeeeeeee~

Let's see, we were walking there and as ALWAYS, I got nagged by the way I cross the road. -.- HELLO. The car won't knock me okay? I'm like what, the size of an elephant? The driver would be damn blind if he didn't see ME trying to cross. HAHAHAHAHA. Go die la. His car would dent. xD

Anyways, so we were walking and AND AND! Alvin almost puked when he saw puke on MidValley floor. EEEEWWWWWWWW. I know. Disgusting. And the best part: I KNOW HE DOESN'T LIKE PUKE. :D I can so puke at him to make him puke now! nGAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Awesome shit man. Woots! So then the first shop we walked in was the puzzle shop! Went in this blue curtain that unveiled glloowwiiinggg puuzzles. Awesomeness man. I am like SO AMAZED. :D As if i'm never amazed at anything. It's a wonder being me sometimes. LOL. That was when I began to snap pictures of EVERYTHING. :D

The moment of truth where I will catch a person in an ugly face. *evil giggles* AND OMG! DAMN LAH. THE SHOP RIGHT. THEY PLAYED THIS SONG "Fuck you.....fuck you very very muuuccchhhh.." *covers ears runs away* when actually in reality *smile amusingly and sings along* while Alvin says "THERE'S KIDS IN THE STORE" ROFLMAO!!

The poor guy. :D

This dilemma then turned around to him not being able to decide what to eat on his own birthday. -_________________________- Worst than girl man. He can't choose what to eat! And guess where we ended up??? KFC. =.= While eating, we talked about "Alvin's FAVOURITE girl in the world" if you know who I mean Reen, *sniff sniff**DIES*, then we saw this couple eating with EIGHT ketchups on their table! and when I asked Brandon to look he blardy walked directly up that table stared and walked away. Isn't he such an ass!? LMAO!!! He did the same shit when someone told him that a girl behind him was checking him out. HE TURNED, LOOKED AT HER AS SHE LOOKED BACK, TURN BACK AROUND AND STARTED LAUGHING.

*shakes head* terrible man...

Then the best part for me eventually came around!!! *starwars theme song* ALVIN'S TWIN CAME! :D And not alone. *cheeky smile* He brought his gang along and guess what!!!? HOT GUY MAN! CINDIAN! WOOOOO! *turnn onnn* Ally should've been there! Dang! Too bad I didn't get to say hi. I just buat bodoh, smile smile, shake hand with twin, swoon over the fact that they look alike, but got different hair, twin wears specs and I think Alvin is bigger? LMAO. Oops. xD And then we parted ways. SOBS. We went to play pool. NGAAAHAHAHAHA! It was cool to shoot photos in there, catching fugly pics of Dom's NON-ass, Brandon's RM20 NON-changed hair, Cutie Dalila and well, highlight of this blog: THEM.



Reen is gonna kill me. She said ONE or TWO. I made it onto a collage of pics. LMAO. :D *coughs* Let's pray no one stalks my blog. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Especially Mr. Siva. :O

Okay, moving on! HEHE. After playing pool, Alvin's twin: Calvin, was called by Reen to come over. I swear I flipped like crazy bitch in my stomach when I heard that news coz that measn HOT GUY'S COMING. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! xD (oh shit, i'm hungry right now -.-) then then THEN, they came. *SMMIILLLLEEEEEEE* and I snapped pictures like usual, pretending not to go crazy when actually I am! ROFLMAO! But sadly they didn't join us to Reen's house. SOBS. Yes readers, we went back to Reen's house. OH! BUT BEFORE DAT. Doughnuts stop. ;)

I know Alvin. I want them too right now. :P My stomach is growling like got croc inside! FULAMAK!

The plan was to surprise Alvin with the cake back at the house. Heck, I couldn't tell whether he was surprised or not coz he was soooo into the doughnuts. He was so blardy paranoid i'd eat it all! WOO! I would though, but I share too. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD At least I think I do. AHAHAHA. Then we had a cake ceremony! Weeeeeeeeeeeee~






Ain't it nice to have cake on ur face now Bear? HAHA. Or should I call you chocolate? And Reen Marshmellow? *gasP* xD

LMAO! Okay okay. I should really move out of people's lovey dovey story. :P So we spent the whole day laughing more after that. Lepak in Reen's room where Dom was turned on, Brandon was sucked into the world of games his laptop had sufficiently provided him and well, Chacko Bear was sleeping nicely on Reen's pillow, convinced that he could drive me back to the station. HAHAHAHAHA.

And the funniest!!! DOMINIQUE!



This is the most epic picture I'LL EVER HAVE! Holymacaroni!!!

And then finally, it was time to leave so we all went downstairs to cool down. BUT. Alvin managed to trick Reen that she was locked outside! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! And then when she came in laughing and all high, SHE BANGED HER NOSE INTO ALVIN'S LARGE ARMS. *rubs my own nose. ouch* The she laughed more, rubbing her nose, Alvin tried to put a pack of Lychee drink on her nose to cool it down, which made Reen laughed MORE. Idiot. :D Here's a snap of them. ;)



So that's the day...a memorable day...:) I love being the photographer. HAHA.

God bless. :D

My Blessed 18th. :)

Well, I could promise you that it's a day that i'll never forget. :D HEHE.

It all began on the day before my birthday. Epic right? Lol. It was a Sunday and I was given the chance to attend evening mass in church (Praise the Lord for that) and for me, that was good enough as a gift for myself. But shockingly, my relatives, well...after mass uncle brought me to CentrePoint and "bought dinner" when actually he was ALSO planning to get cake. Lol. Funny shit man. I was like the blur-ress female ever alive. They walked into a bakery store which I believe he wanted to get breakfast for the following day BUT, he walked in and walked out shaking his head off. I guess I couldn't really make out what was happening because I was after all busy with my cell phone chatting with Daryl. HEHE. Then, uncle stormed to Secret Recipe with me unknowingly trailing behind him, and when he walked in he went directly at the cakes.

BAM.

That's when all the mixed puzzles solves. LMAO! I was like "awwwww..you ddidn't have to..." and I was feeling guilty inside because well, ONE: i'm not used to getting stuff from people, especially expensive stuff. TWO: i really didn't expect tthem to give me anything because living in their house was bad enough. THREE: I just really grow up like that. LOL.

So everything was bought and we went home, and after I was cleaned and everything, I Skyped my childhood bestie, THERESA ROM!! Woooo. I miss that darling. :D We were like ranting on and on about nothing and we started singing then suddenly they took out the candles and placed it on the 4 different slices of cake that they bought.

I was like shock, overwhelmed, happy, sad, blessed and of course thankful for it. :) It felt awkward at first because it wasn't some expectation for me and well, I tried being the birthday girl but it wasn't easy because I was never really treated like one my whole life. Lol. Usually, it'll be a happy birthday wish, hugs and well, the day goes on like normal. But this, the cake [a damned expensive on] THEN they friggin got me a gift too - a memory card for my phone! - [DAMN EXPENSIVE TOO THE LAST TIME I CHECK. RM85 OK! Even if it may be a second hand memory card, it's STILL a memory card]. *sigh* Epic miracle man. LOL.

That's me! :D

Then I went back chatting with Theresa, and we talked on Skype till midnight strike where she would sing me THE SONG. HAHAHAHAHAHA. She's such a cutie sometimes. :P Then Daryl came online on Skype and he wanted to videocam so I hung up with Theresa and let him videocam me. ^^ Not that it was anything special. Pffth. It's so obvious he was faking his oblivion on my birthday. Lol. I have to admit, I was kind of pissed off and frustrated that my own boyfriend didn't greet me on time to it and i'm chatting with him as if I didn't care while I receive all the long bloody notifications of birthday wishes. LOL. I tell you, I wanted to grab his head from my laptop screen, smack it and just say goodnight. -.-

Yes. That's how frustrated I was. I mean, I was on the verge of believing that he didn't know and that's not even what I care. What I care was the fact that he remembers his own EXES' BIRTHDAYS and not MINE. Geez. That's what pissed me off. Ish. But I told myself to calm down eventually because after all, it was JUST a birthday right? Hehe. I was making such a fuss over that. I felt pathetic then. So I just talk to him like normal, then he started bringing up something by saying "There's something about today I can't quite remember" (Such an ass right? He had to be such an ass. T.T) He went ON AND ON AND ON AND ON and he was worst than a girl trying to make a point. ==" Finally, he said he wanted to go to sleep already and we hung up, went offline and I was gonna settle with ignoring him the whole day of my birthday coz I didn't get a wish BUT he had to ruin the plan by calling me with his house phone half hoping that i'll actually not know it's him.

LMAO. Funniest shit ever! He was like "Hello, may I speak to Ms. Kimura?" and I was like "Daryl I know that's you coz you sound like it and no one would actually call me at 1am except you". Then I laughed and he laughed and finally he sang me a birthday song. What the hell right this boy?! :P So my plan to ignore him failed. I couldn't ignore him even when i'm out with my friends for lunch. HEHE.

Well, now we skip to the lunch part. I HAD A WONDERFUL TIME. xDDDDDDD We met up at MidVally - me, Reen, Michelle - and we went to Carl's Jr!! WOO. Burger is like DAMN LARGE!

For me, it was large enough to supply my tank till the next day! :D That's how satisfying it was. NGAHAHAHAHAHAHA. We ate, gossip, laughed, talked about "lovers" and "ex-lovers" then about class and about what we were gonna do that day. I was half hoping that they take me for a movie, but when I saw the line...FUH! I changed my mind. LMAO. It was soooooo super duper LOOONNGGGG it made me wonder what those people do for a living. They must be that desperate to line that long just for a movie eh? So after we ate, Mich's friend who works somewhere in MidValley called her up asking us to accompany her on her lunchbreak. So we went! Woo! She was at McDonald's and when we reached the place, out minds wanted to eat, but we really couldn't gulp down anything anymore. HAHAHAHA. SO FULL CAN DIE. xD

So then Reen told me that Furqan was on his way. And inside I was so delighted because I wanted him to come in the first place! :D I dunno why but I really wanted that class clown to come. Maybe it's coz he's the guy I bully and it's fun having him around to bully on my birthday. HAHAHA. And the epic part is that HE'S THE ONLY GUY IN OUR OUTING. ROFLMAO!!! When he came, we talked...MORE TALK, tease, gossip (yeah, I know. He's a guy and he gossips. :P) Then we laugh like people who came out from Hotel Bahagia if you know what I mean. HAHAHAHA. xDDDDDDD Then I took his chewing gum!! WOOOO. He got me addicted to it since the first time he gace me one. It was sooo nice and smells sooo nice and well, it's NICE. And I didn't have to pay for expensive gum. ^^

Then we girls went somewhere in the surroundings of MidValley Mall to get Furqan lunch! Wooo! And this time, I didn't get to feel bad because I paid for it! :D Unlike lunch with the girls, Reen bought my lunch, Mich got me a bracelet that said "Faith, Believe, Hope, Love" on it and I gotta say I love it but I feel guilty! Coz I always do! That's my damn problem la. HEHEHEHE.

After Furqan ate lunch, we walked arroouunnnddd and arroouunnd and we ended up at this restaurant called "La Manila" I think. I can't remember. Hehehe. And Fu was being so effing funny saying "OH! We're soooo NOT getting you a cake!" and I cracked up at this lamest joke of the year!! xDD So damn obvious and such a spoiler that boy. ROFLMAO. He was jumping like a little kid some more! FUNNY SHIT PROVIDING HE'S A VERY LARGE GUY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Soooooo..they got me a slice of DELICIOUS cake. :D We ate ate ate! Oh ya, they sang for me and the whole restaurant turned to look and it was soooo HUMILIATING!!! OMG. I'M NOT A CROWD PERSON! I almost sank under the table! :O Yeah. AND WE CAMWHORED!!! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Smudging Cake On Me. -.-

Full Like Shit After Burger. xD

Blow! Blow!

Reen, Mich, Fu, Me. :3

Ahh...the PLAN B to make Daryl jealous. LMAO.

TOTAL FAIL!