There was this girl. She's just an average teen who lives life the way other people does. However, she doesn't know an ant mind about love. She thought she knows. But actually, she only pretends to know. She craves to have a man in her life; tall, charming, hot, meant to be - but that's quite impossible right? I mean, the most you'd get with the guy would be a date in the bar and probably a one night stand. LOL. I was just joking there okay? No harsh feeling. What I meant to point out is that having that kind of charming guys is not very possible. It's possible, but maybe very few times.
So, this girl, she finally met a guy when she left hometown. Okay, I mean, she met the guy a long time before, but she never noticed that they actually had feelings for each other. Until the day she left home, and he popped up in her chatbox sending regards. Without feeling any butterflies she replied him back her regards. It was a normal thing to do right? Friends to friends saying hello after a long time of departure. But the funny thing that came after that was the guy asked for her number. She was weirded out for a moment because it made her wonder why he suddenly wanted her number. All those while she was back home, meeting up with him for some activities, he never bothered asking for it. He never even bothered to give her a look to smile sincerely. He was this bossy guy with a nasty attitude behind his ass but yet cute in a nice way. Heck, who's not attracted to dimples right?
So she relaxed and told herself that maybe finally he wanted to be actual friends. Hence, she gave her number away to this mysterious long lost not so close friend. A few minutes after that, they chat cheerfully as if they've done it a billion times which is actually a lie coz they've never chat before, and then he texted her saying that's his number. A paradoxical moment occurred to her when she opened her inbox. She cursed for a moment then she wondered to her right mind why she even had butterflies receiving his text message. She was worried by then but she again, dismissed it. She texted him back and with no doubt in her mind about their friendship, they texted through the phone and also chat online. Some people may find it strange to sms and chat at the same time to the same person when actually, they're talking about the same shit. However, for these two friends, they seem to take it as if talking in 2 different network meant talking in a different world with different emotions set to it.
Eventually, the normal talking became sweet talks. The girl accidently called him "Dear", by which she used to call all her friends whom she's comfortable with. She was comfortable with him, but she wasn't really intending to call him that just yet coz it may seem weird. But her fingers were impossible to be stopped when she's tapping onto her cell phone. It'll immediately click the send button after typing. Therefore, what was sent remained sent. She didn't regret it though. She was just jittery about how he would react. She wondered if he would take it personally and she found out that he didn't. In fact, he responded by calling her "Sayang" after a few rounds of those sweet callings. She was smiling madly when she read that. Butterflies, fidgeting; the feeling of higness when you feel like you LIKE someone. And she snapped out of it. She asked herself whether she liked the guy. Why won't she admit it to herself? She questioned herself so much until one day she's had enough of it. She doesn't want to be played with if that's the case. She did what was right for her that time.
She told him the honest truth of how she felt this friendship was leading to.
And he replied with the same emotion as her. He was clueless why they were chatting that way. He knew they connected. He knew he may have feelings for her but he may not want to admit it to himself as well. They were both at the same situation. So this girl, she told him that she didn't want it all to go away. She wants to keep liking him coz it was right at that time. She seemed to have accepted the fact that she may want him to accept that she likes him in that way. And she seemed to have accepted the fact that he likes her in that sense too. Both parties are at a win-win situation but both parties are confused to how to move on with it. Such a cliche love tale ain't it? Okay fine, not love then. LIKE tale.
So he told her, in a cool manner, respecting her every angle of view, that maybe they should try this new found relationship slowly. They'd give it a try for 2 months then maybe get together when everything seemed fine. The girl for one was upset in her heart because she was down with the fact that she away from home which meant she was away from him. How could something new work out with a person when they're miles apart? But this guy gave her some hopes. He made her believe that it can be worked out and it can be fixed between the two. At some point, the girl may have hopes that he came to the state she was in to study there so they could both be together. But she thought rasionally again, she made herself brave. Her mind chanted that if this relationship was able to work out the way they planned, then they could work out anything together. Yes, absence makes the heart grows fonder but absence also brings temptations in anyhow. If they were able to withstand that temptation when away from each other, they're sure to be able to trust in each other in such relationship. It could work out. I will. At least that's what she told herself.
Hence, things move on from there. There were some pitstops where they would worry too much over each other or even let jealousy set in sometimes but each person managed to control their feelings. They would advice one another that they're just joking and just giving the thrill to cause trouble between their spark. And also at some point, it may seem like they're already together officially when they're actually not. The girl tends to think that she's probably falling in love with him but told herself no again. She keeps saying that, NO. Why, she doesn't know. Even when the guy called her up one day and told her "I love you", she wouldn't say it back. She stopped herself. She doesn't want to say it back. Not on the phone at least. She wants to wait. She wants to know if her feelings were real.
And until today, she still doesn't know. She only knows that she blushes everytime he teases her, everytime he calls her "Darling" and everytime he makes her feel like he's just by her side holding her hand. It's a wonder how she manages to imagine him there sometimes but most of the time, she makes herself miss him too much coz she really wants him with her. She wants him cuddling her in hugs, she wants him smiling at her and laughing with her, she wants him there. Isn't it crazy?
The other crazy story would be them deciding not to talk, chat or even sms each other for one full day. And they started during the evening of the day before until now. There's about 9 hours left before the game of not talking ends. What she plans is to not even text him when the game ends. But she knows it's gonna kill her. She knows she's gonna ache in pain when he texts her to say that the game is over. But she wants him to call. So that's still the plan in her mind. What's she gonna do? She's confuse. And missing him. And staring at her phone half the time more than she's supposed to and stalking him so much on his Facebook just wondering what he's feeling like right now. He did post that it would a long day and that made her smile in glory. She was half hoping that he would give up the game and let her win it. She wanted to see that sulk in his face, hear it in his voice and maybe give him a good long hug when she comes back to her hometown in 2 weeks time.
This story is going no where. -.- I'm missing him. SHIT. ><" *Sigh* Stupid game. GRR.
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