My ass is finally back in KL again, oh the hazy air, thick with smoke and warm as the ozone layer thins away. It was a nice flight back here, only the landing was bumpy. I actually had a little leap in my chest, thinking we were gonna crash, or the wing of the plane was gonna jerk off from the pressure of the wind.
But thank God it didn't.
It was hard leaving home, as always, but this time it seemed a little lighter of a burden. Perhaps it's coz, after quite some time, I'm actually leaving as a single woman, who've over ate during her 3 months stay, and I just feel like I have nothing to leave behind.
Leaving my family didn't feel like me leaving them. So they don't count, they'll always be there. ALWAYS. No relationship statuses, no ridiculous "I miss you" although they do miss me. They know to wait.
Anyways, out of topic!
I'm out here again, gonna reach out to a future that has been laid out to me by God. Yeah yeah, memories get it the way at times, but that's what it does - remind people of what used to be.
Like here in a friend's house was where all those heartbreaking tears used to rain over. The room opposite me glares at me in curiosity as to what happened to me and that person that used to speak across the line of my mobile phone. The dolls eyes me in sympathy as I write this blog, it's ridiculous. I can't blame it, it witnessed the end of my love life.
I'm always on the verge of writing a new song now and then, a new album. Still considering what I should call it. But I don't want to. I just don't feel like singing and composing just yet. It just doesn't feel like my Break has settled.
GAH.
I am going to bury my head in a heap of books. HEAPS of them.
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