ANYWAYS! Time to bug Daryl in Facebook. Hope he comes tomorrow. :D I miss him!
Friday, December 16, 2011
Merry Christmas & I'm Coming Home Baby!
GOOD LORD. I'm coming home tomorrow! :DDDDD What delight I have in my chest right now. Though I might miss - okay fine, WILL miss my buddies here - I think this year's been too long gone from home and family and old friends that I feel I must celebrate it back home this time. Hehehehe. Maybe next year, when I do my degree, i'll have Christmas here. xD
Monday, November 14, 2011
dream a little dream of us
Who could possibly tell if it was a good sign or a bad sign if one were to dream of something futuristic? Some may say it depends on the content of it, some may say it's a God sent message to reach it, yet the mind is in daze of the wonder of such dream that brought so much glee in the heart and soul.
Perhaps it's because I love you much and perhaps it's that "one day" thing that I try to think less of so it would actually come true; I wouldn't know. All I felt in it was love, happiness and it felt so right.
So it was last night's dream that made it so impossible for me to tell you because I might be shy to admit the fact that I loved it, because it's so unexpected for a girl who's never even thought about the issue and maybe because I want it to actually happen someday? :$ I'm sorry i'm a sucker for love Sweety. Hehe.
Okay, it started casually, it was at my grandmother's old house, something stupid that I can't recall; there wasn't me and you yet. It was me and somebody else. I know I was looking drenched and tired and I was so busy with things. I was taking in the clothes as the rain drizzled down. And the next thing I remember was people were dressing me up, preparing me for something I, the dreamer, couldn't quite click into mind. Then the vision just dashed me off to a bombastic huge hall, there were sooooo many people in there and I was standing - in a beautiful white gown, wearing comfortable heels, smiling so widely, my arm was linked in yours. As for you, you were suited up in a handsome tuxedo, your face was glowing as mine was as well. Your eyes were trained on me, just as how the crowd's eyes were on me. It was the most magnificent feeling to stand by you, with God knows how many people were there as witness to this bright - golden, white, red - matrimonial ceremony of us. Yes sweetheart, that's why it's special - it's our wedding.
It was very strange though that in the dream, I refused to choose my father to walk down the aisle with me. I wanted you by my side as I walked down, it seemed that I didn't want my man to wait for my arrival by the altar, rather I want him with me, stand by me, entering this new world with me. And it was a very new experience where I, as the bride, was given so much compliment on how beautiful I looked, how tears were shed that I don't look like me, how it's amazing a plain and simple girl could be glowing in her fair gown, glitter like an expensive material as the colour gold of the setting compliments her smile and she just looks happy beside her soon to be husband.
Flowers were sprinkled above us as we passed the roaring crowd, I see my friends, I see your friends, our families, you squeezed my hand when we were nearing the altar. When reaching the steps, you let go of me and the overwhelming feeling of having you as mine soon made me stutter in breath. While I climbed the steps up the altar, once again I was complimented on beauty, on amazement and there and then, you took my hand again and for some reason I felt safe and loved. I turned to look at the crowd and I was embraced with reality, shocking my system that i'm about to begin a new life with you. It was hard to imagine the life we had before at that moment.
We were then seated by the side after the ceremony, gifts were being placed in the front. We had piles of it - quite unbelievable. Our wedding seemed so poshed and gay. It's funny how when I reflected on our conversation of marriage, I remembered telling you I only wanted something simple but you wanted it big and eventful. Lol. But maybe, something like this dream might be a dream come true. As the crowd watched us sitting together on the altar side, while gifts were slowly being placed on the creatively decorated table, I held your hand, remembering how these hands used to be just normal lovers, and comparing them to the present dream. Then you started kissing my hand like you always do. I guess at that time I was too overwhelmed to say anything, so I just leaned on your shoulder.
At that moment, I closed my eyes, everything was dark and passionate, and when I opened them, I appeared in another room. I was sitting facing the dressing table. My reflection was staring back at me and my hair was no more mounted with the veil, my make up was lighter now as it was wiped off and I wasn't in my gown. I then started to wonder what happened to the bright and happy wedding. On my right was the toilet door and it was partially open. I was still wondering and questioning myself, was I dreaming only? Did the wedding not happen?
Then only I heard your voice coming from the toilet calling me "Asawa" which then sent bolts of joy down my body. I pushed the door open to see whether it's really you, and yes I saw you and you smiled at me. I kept staring until you came over to kiss me gently. Once again, I felt as if everything was right. I've got you, your scent, your touch and your love. I couldn't remember what you said before you kissed me again and that's when the dream ended. Sadly, it ended and I woke up smiling and wondering where I was. Until it clicked to me that i'm currently an 18 year old student, dating you who appeared to be across South China Sea, and so far so good, i'm in love with you. The amount of joy in my heart this morning was undescribable but questions of losing you were taunting my mind. What if this dream was a bad sign. :/ I pray not and i'll keep having faith.
Hence, finally I have a dream of my own wedding. Perhaps this not much of a girl your dating, could finally be a girl in some ways. :)
Perhaps it's because I love you much and perhaps it's that "one day" thing that I try to think less of so it would actually come true; I wouldn't know. All I felt in it was love, happiness and it felt so right.
So it was last night's dream that made it so impossible for me to tell you because I might be shy to admit the fact that I loved it, because it's so unexpected for a girl who's never even thought about the issue and maybe because I want it to actually happen someday? :$ I'm sorry i'm a sucker for love Sweety. Hehe.
Okay, it started casually, it was at my grandmother's old house, something stupid that I can't recall; there wasn't me and you yet. It was me and somebody else. I know I was looking drenched and tired and I was so busy with things. I was taking in the clothes as the rain drizzled down. And the next thing I remember was people were dressing me up, preparing me for something I, the dreamer, couldn't quite click into mind. Then the vision just dashed me off to a bombastic huge hall, there were sooooo many people in there and I was standing - in a beautiful white gown, wearing comfortable heels, smiling so widely, my arm was linked in yours. As for you, you were suited up in a handsome tuxedo, your face was glowing as mine was as well. Your eyes were trained on me, just as how the crowd's eyes were on me. It was the most magnificent feeling to stand by you, with God knows how many people were there as witness to this bright - golden, white, red - matrimonial ceremony of us. Yes sweetheart, that's why it's special - it's our wedding.
It was very strange though that in the dream, I refused to choose my father to walk down the aisle with me. I wanted you by my side as I walked down, it seemed that I didn't want my man to wait for my arrival by the altar, rather I want him with me, stand by me, entering this new world with me. And it was a very new experience where I, as the bride, was given so much compliment on how beautiful I looked, how tears were shed that I don't look like me, how it's amazing a plain and simple girl could be glowing in her fair gown, glitter like an expensive material as the colour gold of the setting compliments her smile and she just looks happy beside her soon to be husband.
Flowers were sprinkled above us as we passed the roaring crowd, I see my friends, I see your friends, our families, you squeezed my hand when we were nearing the altar. When reaching the steps, you let go of me and the overwhelming feeling of having you as mine soon made me stutter in breath. While I climbed the steps up the altar, once again I was complimented on beauty, on amazement and there and then, you took my hand again and for some reason I felt safe and loved. I turned to look at the crowd and I was embraced with reality, shocking my system that i'm about to begin a new life with you. It was hard to imagine the life we had before at that moment.
We were then seated by the side after the ceremony, gifts were being placed in the front. We had piles of it - quite unbelievable. Our wedding seemed so poshed and gay. It's funny how when I reflected on our conversation of marriage, I remembered telling you I only wanted something simple but you wanted it big and eventful. Lol. But maybe, something like this dream might be a dream come true. As the crowd watched us sitting together on the altar side, while gifts were slowly being placed on the creatively decorated table, I held your hand, remembering how these hands used to be just normal lovers, and comparing them to the present dream. Then you started kissing my hand like you always do. I guess at that time I was too overwhelmed to say anything, so I just leaned on your shoulder.
At that moment, I closed my eyes, everything was dark and passionate, and when I opened them, I appeared in another room. I was sitting facing the dressing table. My reflection was staring back at me and my hair was no more mounted with the veil, my make up was lighter now as it was wiped off and I wasn't in my gown. I then started to wonder what happened to the bright and happy wedding. On my right was the toilet door and it was partially open. I was still wondering and questioning myself, was I dreaming only? Did the wedding not happen?
Then only I heard your voice coming from the toilet calling me "Asawa" which then sent bolts of joy down my body. I pushed the door open to see whether it's really you, and yes I saw you and you smiled at me. I kept staring until you came over to kiss me gently. Once again, I felt as if everything was right. I've got you, your scent, your touch and your love. I couldn't remember what you said before you kissed me again and that's when the dream ended. Sadly, it ended and I woke up smiling and wondering where I was. Until it clicked to me that i'm currently an 18 year old student, dating you who appeared to be across South China Sea, and so far so good, i'm in love with you. The amount of joy in my heart this morning was undescribable but questions of losing you were taunting my mind. What if this dream was a bad sign. :/ I pray not and i'll keep having faith.
Hence, finally I have a dream of my own wedding. Perhaps this not much of a girl your dating, could finally be a girl in some ways. :)
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
WHOA.
My gawd! I haven't login here in a baggillion years! :O
Anyways, i think i left my blog hanging at the episode where i was back home, but well, i'm back in KL for a month now and good memories were made from my last trip. :D and i'll leave it to that. HEHEHEHE.
And here i am today, night actually, WORRYING LIKE CRAP, over the fact that i'm now blogging instead of studying for next week's finals. :O YEAH. I DID SAY NEXT WEEK. Damn girl, it felt like just yesterday that i started college. And here we are, FINALS. *fretting and frowning* it seems to be an easy thing to think about at times, but then the issue of FAILING just drowns the positive lifestyle. It's killing me how i cant be myself!! It's a while different feeling from SPM or rather PMR. I can't be still! I can't really focus. I don't blame anyone in particular for that because i do make an effort to concentrate. I put away Facebook, i put away Daryl when im studying, i try to forget about food when i'm stressed and all i want to do is read and not sleep. THAT'S RARE! Haiz.
Lord help me. World pray for me. Me, HELP MYSELF. -.-
Well, i gotta go release some stress now by playing a little bit of pool. :D then maybe chat a while with my darling and then go to bed, and wake up later for studies.
I WANT CHRISTMAS NOW.
Anyways, i think i left my blog hanging at the episode where i was back home, but well, i'm back in KL for a month now and good memories were made from my last trip. :D and i'll leave it to that. HEHEHEHE.
And here i am today, night actually, WORRYING LIKE CRAP, over the fact that i'm now blogging instead of studying for next week's finals. :O YEAH. I DID SAY NEXT WEEK. Damn girl, it felt like just yesterday that i started college. And here we are, FINALS. *fretting and frowning* it seems to be an easy thing to think about at times, but then the issue of FAILING just drowns the positive lifestyle. It's killing me how i cant be myself!! It's a while different feeling from SPM or rather PMR. I can't be still! I can't really focus. I don't blame anyone in particular for that because i do make an effort to concentrate. I put away Facebook, i put away Daryl when im studying, i try to forget about food when i'm stressed and all i want to do is read and not sleep. THAT'S RARE! Haiz.
Lord help me. World pray for me. Me, HELP MYSELF. -.-
Well, i gotta go release some stress now by playing a little bit of pool. :D then maybe chat a while with my darling and then go to bed, and wake up later for studies.
I WANT CHRISTMAS NOW.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
IM HOME! :3
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ I'm back home in Kuching and having a blast? :D I wouldn't know yet. So far so good, met my church buddies last night and will be meeting Sweets for lunch today! HEHEHEHHE.
Nervous. O.O"
Toodles!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Penang! :D
Okay. I can swear to God I was the most excited gal to go on a bus trip to Penang. :DDDDD
Our trip fell on the dates 15th to 17th of July 2o11. EPIC SHIT. There's me (Janine Kimura), Reen Khan, Alvin Chacko, Dom Gomez and Brandon Tan! HEHEHEHE.
The night before the trip, the boys went to sleep over at Dom's place. Blardy hell, they went out on a food fest without us girls. =.= *smacks Dom* Reen and I are busy at her house, finalizing our packs. You know us, we don't wanna forget anything. Unlike the boys, AT LEAST WE BROUGHT TOOTHPASTE. xD And as the night wear off, they all slept and I was the last person up. If I wasn't mistaken, I slept off at 2.30am. :O Excited much? Weeeeeeeeeeee~
And then morning came to rise! :DD Reen walked in the room waking me up before my alarn even rang! ==" I still remebered how I told her, "It's not even 5.30 yet! Let my alarm ring lah. I wanna sleep..." but in my head, i'm like "Ring alarm. Ring!! Ring!! I wanna go Penang NOW!". HAHAHAHA. Yeah, once it rang, I bounced out of bed, texted suummbooodeeeeeeee. ^^ then showered, and pack up nicely. :D
I liked what I wore that morning. Reminds me of my old self. Y'know, the simple wear, gangster style but still a little feminine (shit, i dunno how to spell), and sneakers baby! :D Yeehaw! And we're off to Chorus Hotel...
It was so cold when we arrived there. It got colder when it started to rain heavily. I was cursing my ass off as I shivered in the lobby of the hotel waiting for the boys - such princess' they were, took such a long time to make up or rather make OUT at home - to come so we could board the bus already. LOL. I even manages to fall asleep on the couch while waiting and Reen just went for a number of toilet moments. I think she loves it or something. :P Eventually, the girls (BOYS) came in their ballerina outfit and we board the bus!! The rain was pouring like shit man. We got soaked and was feeling cold again in the bus ride. Haiz..
Our bus was to leave by 9.30am and when we're inside, we expected it to be cool and fancy like what we saw in the blog, but bullshit weyh. It was like every normal bus and I couldn't even watch TV! =.= But thank God I could be satisfied with the classic music they had on the chair audio. xD It was soooo COOL! But again, the sucky part came, the food was disgusting! *shudders* The only nice tasting thing in it was the egg, and it was smaller than my thumb! Blady hell.
But of course, Brandon the life saver, and probably credits to the other boys, they got junk food. And I chewed on some of it. I liked the pringles but the damn camel had to eat it off by himself! Yeah. Then we got the chocolate cookies thingy, Alvin ate that off though. And Dom also. xD
4 hours plus plus later...
WE'RE ALMOST AT PENANG! PENANG! Everyone woke up, excited to see the bridge. But heck, such a spoiler because of the haze, so we can't see the view. Pffth!! Then we arrived!!! AND THERE'S J.CO'S NEXT TO THE STATION!! And soo...
We went to eat. Damn delicious weyh. T.T I want it NOW! Eff you Alvin.
Yah, then the time became draggy coz we had to wait for Brandon's friends to come pick us up, and when they did, THEY ALMOST KILLED US WITH THEIR DRIVING WEYH. The most epic moment during that death experience was when I heard Brandon screamed for his life. Hahahahahahaha. This dude who insisted we called him "Handsome" drove out of a junction looking on the left side and a bus was swerving from the right side, so when Brandon saw he went "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" and his friend quickly sped off avoiding the on the verge of death crash. ROFLMAO!
Eventually, we reached the hotel, put our stuff in, then set off for some nice tea time. DAMN HUNGRY. We had Tanduri!!! (I think that's how it's spelt. LOL) And then, we went to ze beaccchhhh!! MUAHAHAHAHA. Had so much fun, especially watching Dom make a horse out of himself, watch Alvin trying to be macho but scared of being hit by me, and Reen...well, supermodel wannabe? HAHAHAHAHAHA. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
There and then, we decided to watch the sunset, but ended up NOT watching it coz the sun took so damn long to set. It was like 7pm! AND IT'S STILL UP IN THE SKY! Fulamak man. Tsk3. :P Oh oh! And moment of epicness came!! DOM WAS RUNNING AWAY FROM TSUNAMI! Bahahahahahahaha!!
:) We shall come back. Loves.
Our trip fell on the dates 15th to 17th of July 2o11. EPIC SHIT. There's me (Janine Kimura), Reen Khan, Alvin Chacko, Dom Gomez and Brandon Tan! HEHEHEHE.
The night before the trip, the boys went to sleep over at Dom's place. Blardy hell, they went out on a food fest without us girls. =.= *smacks Dom* Reen and I are busy at her house, finalizing our packs. You know us, we don't wanna forget anything. Unlike the boys, AT LEAST WE BROUGHT TOOTHPASTE. xD And as the night wear off, they all slept and I was the last person up. If I wasn't mistaken, I slept off at 2.30am. :O Excited much? Weeeeeeeeeeee~
And then morning came to rise! :DD Reen walked in the room waking me up before my alarn even rang! ==" I still remebered how I told her, "It's not even 5.30 yet! Let my alarm ring lah. I wanna sleep..." but in my head, i'm like "Ring alarm. Ring!! Ring!! I wanna go Penang NOW!". HAHAHAHA. Yeah, once it rang, I bounced out of bed, texted suummbooodeeeeeeee. ^^ then showered, and pack up nicely. :D
I liked what I wore that morning. Reminds me of my old self. Y'know, the simple wear, gangster style but still a little feminine (shit, i dunno how to spell), and sneakers baby! :D Yeehaw! And we're off to Chorus Hotel...
It was so cold when we arrived there. It got colder when it started to rain heavily. I was cursing my ass off as I shivered in the lobby of the hotel waiting for the boys - such princess' they were, took such a long time to make up or rather make OUT at home - to come so we could board the bus already. LOL. I even manages to fall asleep on the couch while waiting and Reen just went for a number of toilet moments. I think she loves it or something. :P Eventually, the girls (BOYS) came in their ballerina outfit and we board the bus!! The rain was pouring like shit man. We got soaked and was feeling cold again in the bus ride. Haiz..
Our bus was to leave by 9.30am and when we're inside, we expected it to be cool and fancy like what we saw in the blog, but bullshit weyh. It was like every normal bus and I couldn't even watch TV! =.= But thank God I could be satisfied with the classic music they had on the chair audio. xD It was soooo COOL! But again, the sucky part came, the food was disgusting! *shudders* The only nice tasting thing in it was the egg, and it was smaller than my thumb! Blady hell.
But of course, Brandon the life saver, and probably credits to the other boys, they got junk food. And I chewed on some of it. I liked the pringles but the damn camel had to eat it off by himself! Yeah. Then we got the chocolate cookies thingy, Alvin ate that off though. And Dom also. xD
4 hours plus plus later...
WE'RE ALMOST AT PENANG! PENANG! Everyone woke up, excited to see the bridge. But heck, such a spoiler because of the haze, so we can't see the view. Pffth!! Then we arrived!!! AND THERE'S J.CO'S NEXT TO THE STATION!! And soo...
We went to eat. Damn delicious weyh. T.T I want it NOW! Eff you Alvin.
Yah, then the time became draggy coz we had to wait for Brandon's friends to come pick us up, and when they did, THEY ALMOST KILLED US WITH THEIR DRIVING WEYH. The most epic moment during that death experience was when I heard Brandon screamed for his life. Hahahahahahaha. This dude who insisted we called him "Handsome" drove out of a junction looking on the left side and a bus was swerving from the right side, so when Brandon saw he went "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" and his friend quickly sped off avoiding the on the verge of death crash. ROFLMAO!
Eventually, we reached the hotel, put our stuff in, then set off for some nice tea time. DAMN HUNGRY. We had Tanduri!!! (I think that's how it's spelt. LOL) And then, we went to ze beaccchhhh!! MUAHAHAHAHA. Had so much fun, especially watching Dom make a horse out of himself, watch Alvin trying to be macho but scared of being hit by me, and Reen...well, supermodel wannabe? HAHAHAHAHAHA. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
There and then, we decided to watch the sunset, but ended up NOT watching it coz the sun took so damn long to set. It was like 7pm! AND IT'S STILL UP IN THE SKY! Fulamak man. Tsk3. :P Oh oh! And moment of epicness came!! DOM WAS RUNNING AWAY FROM TSUNAMI! Bahahahahahahaha!!
And another moment of epicness! Dom found his dick on the seashore. :D
Hell yeah.
Unfortunately, Brandon didn't join us on this. But I'm sure he had fun with his family and friends too. :) I hope he did though. Yes Bwandy? xDD Which meant, we didn't get to go to Gurnea also. SOBS. I would love to whack Brandon's head off for this, because my main objective in Penang was to taste the Fried Kuey Tiaw there, since Alvin made it seem like the must eat food before you die. =.= And it was ruined. But I'm nicer to Brandon rather than Alvin, so I didn't kill him. Yeah, we were all pissed for a while, but eventually, we figured our way to satisfy ourself.
We had the beach, the pool, the room, outside food, and well...MY CAMERA. Muahahahahahaha. That's damn epic enough for me. xD
Yeah, as we watched the sunset, we took lotsa nice pictures. Mostly of hillarious and idiotic shit from Dom, gay faces from Alvin, Reen puffy hair and well, my annoyance. xD BUT. The sun never seem to set. According to Reen, "It's like a light bulb, it just switched off!" :O Stoooooopid.
THEN NIGHT CAME. A vow to ourselves, "We won't sleep at all tonight". Which of course, NEVER happened. HAHAHAH. We spent the whole night talking rubbish, me trying not to kill Dom who was enjoying himself on MY bed, spreading his dirt on MY bed, and making himself comfortable on MY bed. =.= While, I was on the small couch which would totally fit him. LOL. Chill Dom, I'm not mad. I wanted to take over the TV anyways. HEHEHE. And be able to throw coke bottle at you while you were under the covers. :D Had fun, we had food feast in the room. Bough Satay, Fried Kuey Tiaw, Pizza, Fried Chicken, Burgers, Muffins, Drinks...and...I can't quite remember anymore. :P The Kuey Tiaw was like FIRE!! -.- So damn spicy. Then, the Satay tasted like shit. Chicken was too filling I couldn't finish mine. But the muffin was yummy, except it's dry. My burger....well, i ate half of it and I couldn't take it anymore. I was on the verge of throwing up on Dom. LMAO.
Oh, not to leave out the fact that Dom got raped by Alvin and Reen. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. The poor fellow. (Well, not really. He won't stop neighing! Thank God he didn't leave prints on the wall. They were WILD) :O
Then I wanted to take a walk at the beach top. It was so dark, I was almost scared but The fear wear off coz it was so cool to hear the waves at night. It felt like paradise. Excluding mosquitos and ants being annoying. I just didn't want to leave. Haiz...Penang...
Yeah, then...4am plus plus..*yawns* *sleep walking* *Dom snuggled up in MY bed* *Reen & Alvin...well...Reen & Alvin* And then, everyone decided to sleep off for maybe an hour or two. We were to be out on the beach by 6am. xD
BUT WE DIDN'T WAKE UP AND THE SUN WAS UP WHEN EYES WERE ALL OPENED.
Me: *open eyes* OH SHIT.
Reen: HMM? *giggles* we didn't wake up.
Me: Damn...I wonder if the boys are awake. *still wanna sleep*
Reen: Time to get up. Breakfast.
Me: *groans*
Uhuh. We missed sunrise. Damn epic. LOL.
So we treated our wounds breakfast instead. And by the top railing, we could see the beach, it was beautiful in the morning. And cold. HEHEHE. And I can't remember who got all excited to jump in the pool. It definitely wasn't me. All I wanted to do was snap photos. xD And I snapped a handful of 'em. *giggles*
AND FINALLY THE MOMENT OF TRUTH CAME.
We went to the beach, and Janine Kimura decided to put down her camera so she could play waves. :D SO FUN. Funniest scene would be...
Me: Big wave!! *turns around*
Reen and Alvin: Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
Dom: *concentrating, don't fall!*
*WAVE SMASH*
Me: *fall from impact*
Reen: *slides with the wave*
Alvin: HAHAHAHA. Reen! *takes both her hands to pull her up*
Dom: *offers me a hand up*
*ANOTHER WAVE SMASH*
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! *looking at Reen floating about like a starfish* HAHAHAHAHAHA!! *looking at Dom, who fell coz I pulled him* HAHAHAHAHA
Dom: So much for being my anchor!
Alvin: Look at Reen! Get up lah! Before another wave comes!
Reen: *laughing in slat water. bloop. bloop* HAHAHAHAHA.
TEEHEE! What lah...
Sadly, I couldn't snap ANY photos of these. Why is it when I'm not holding my camera, epicness had to come along? Hiisshhh.
After our little fun, we went for lunch together. I think. I can't remember. HAHAHA. Then Brandon came!! He wanted to go swimming, but then they didn't tell me when he went, so I missed it. :( I was having alone time with my camera, at the beach, watching the sunset. xDDDDDDDDDD THIS TIME. IT SET. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I'm totally awesome. The only sad part is that, from the beach we were at, I couldn't see it set in the horizon. Sobness.
But before I left for my alone time. The whole group of us were hanging about in the hotel room. Not just us friends, but sooner Reen's parents and Robert joined us. We were talking and talking and talking then suddenly...
Reen's Dad (Uncle): *sits on Dom's bed and started sniffing annoyingly* What's that smell? *stands up and glares accusingly at everyone*
Me: Huh? What smell? *blurr*
Dom and Alvin: What is it?
Me: *looking at Reen at the balcony. she's not looking inside, and seem to be giggling* *light bulb, the fake shit* xD
Uncle: Omg. Who shit over there? *points at the corner of Dom's bed*
Dom: OH SHIT!
Alvin: OH MY GAWD. DOM! NOT AGAIN!
Dom: Eyh!! NOT ME!! I SWEAR UNCLE IT'S NOT ME!
Uncle: Then who could have possibly done it? *angry* Stinks like Indian Shit.
Me: *laughs* What?! *crawls out of bed to look* oohh mmyyy gooooooddd. *looks at Reen, she's goggling*
Reen's Mum (Aunty): Maybe Janine had to dump.
Me: AUNTY! NO! *clutched my ass* I wouldn't!
Dom: OH SHIT WEYH. ALVIN. I SERIOUSLY DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. *panics*
Uncle: My God. *bends down, picks up the shit and throw at Dom*
Dom: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
And everyone just BURST TO TEARS LAUGHING THEIR ASS OFF. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! THEY THOUGHT IT WAS REAL SHIT!! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Kesian the boys. Then the story of Buddha's shit came to place. I can't quite put my finger on the story, but if Alvin's willing to tell, he shall post it in the comments. HEHE.
We tried to trick Robert, but he didn't fall for it though. He knew immediately that it was fake shit. :P Uncle did the same trick on Reen's cousin that night. Only this time, we were ALL in the reception area, having a smooth talk. Until they walked in from dinner. All elderly were sitting and we youngsters stood by listening. Then Reen came rushing to my ear saying, "My dad's gonna pull the shit trick". I looked at Alvin, he was already walking off coz he couldn't contain his laugh. And I stood there, and watched.
Uncle: Holy shit. What's that smell.
Guy: Oh my God. That's shit.
Uncle: YEAH.
Girl: Oh God. Ew.
Uncle: Is that your shit? Did you put a dump here?
Guy: Nawh! *laughs* Just leave it.
Uncle: What do you mean leave it? Call room service?
Guy and Girl: *looks at the shit*
Uncle: Ahhh. Nevermind. *picks up shit and threw it at the girl*
Girl: *SCREAMED AT THE TOP OF HER LUNGS!*
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. What a funny sight. The whole reception stopped their worked to see us laughing and screaming and laughing and almost falling off our chairs and feet. :P
Ahh. Moments. :)
Then, we went to get dinner, which was not much this time coz we were not in the mood for a feast anymore, and well, I was only up to eating mee cup, and non-stop bickering with Dom. Don't know why he's such a piece of shit and a brat, and a baby, I wanna kill you Dom!! I think I did that like a billion times infinity in my head already! :O xD Then we watched TV, and I went back to my room, with the intention of bathing, loading the pics, and going back to the boy's room. But I ended up sleeping off instead. The damn bed was calling I guess. HEHEHE. Soft, and cold and comfy. I even ignored Daryl coz of the bed. :P Woopsie. <3
And morning came along. Rise and shine. We were set to see the sun rise. :D
Surprising eh? That we actually woke up? The rising was peaceful, not as beautiful as I expected, but peaceful. :) Had our last moments at the beach. Then we had to get ready for check out. :( WE DIDN'T WANNA LEAVE. *sniffs*
But yeah. We had to say goodbye to Penang...
Memories:
:) We shall come back. Loves.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
new routine
Phew! Mock's coming soon! Exam's coming soon! IMMA DIE SOON. :O
So here's the deal. I hafta get up at 5.30am every morning starting today onwards - which didn't really happen this morning, I woke up but decided to sleep back. That shall not happen again! My lazy ass have got to get going and get studying. I can't risk my chances of getting nice grades this time. High school should be way behind my buttock! OH GOD. I MISS HOME.
Okay, so the waking up. Then off to college, do what I hafta there. Come home, rest a while, work out - either normal routine like crunches, push ups and jumps or small stretching sessions then swimming! :D - then dinner or perhaps shower? Nawh. Dinner first.
Y'know what. I don't think i'd be so diciplined to actually follow all this shit. T.T Now i'm worried. I hafta cut down my time with Sweets too. :'( Now i'm sad. Haiz. At least I told him that I won't be talking to him much by September. I wouldn't have time for him. At least, that should be the case. I have to not have time for him. Otherwise, i'd be distracted. The only way to be strong for that is to remind myself that i'll be home as soon as exam's done with! WOO! THE DELIGHTNESS! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I hope things work well. And I hope I can meet him. :/ But he has exam....
Ah shit. Not now Jay. Not now. I can't think about that now. It's not healthy! Wokay, Reen is gone now. And I just finish my simple work out. What do I do now? Homework? GOD. The dread. Oh well. I think I should. Since Sweets' disappeared to God knows where. LOL. Poor him. I miss him. A lot.
Haiz..
So here's the deal. I hafta get up at 5.30am every morning starting today onwards - which didn't really happen this morning, I woke up but decided to sleep back. That shall not happen again! My lazy ass have got to get going and get studying. I can't risk my chances of getting nice grades this time. High school should be way behind my buttock! OH GOD. I MISS HOME.
Okay, so the waking up. Then off to college, do what I hafta there. Come home, rest a while, work out - either normal routine like crunches, push ups and jumps or small stretching sessions then swimming! :D - then dinner or perhaps shower? Nawh. Dinner first.
Y'know what. I don't think i'd be so diciplined to actually follow all this shit. T.T Now i'm worried. I hafta cut down my time with Sweets too. :'( Now i'm sad. Haiz. At least I told him that I won't be talking to him much by September. I wouldn't have time for him. At least, that should be the case. I have to not have time for him. Otherwise, i'd be distracted. The only way to be strong for that is to remind myself that i'll be home as soon as exam's done with! WOO! THE DELIGHTNESS! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I hope things work well. And I hope I can meet him. :/ But he has exam....
Ah shit. Not now Jay. Not now. I can't think about that now. It's not healthy! Wokay, Reen is gone now. And I just finish my simple work out. What do I do now? Homework? GOD. The dread. Oh well. I think I should. Since Sweets' disappeared to God knows where. LOL. Poor him. I miss him. A lot.
Haiz..
Sunday, July 3, 2011
you and me :)
I remember...
2. February. 2011
- you and me. *blush*
18. March. 2011
- first hug, first peck on the cheek, you held my hand. and you made my night at the concert. :)
19. March. 2011
- our first mass together, side by side like a normal couple. but departure was the sad tale...*sigh*
I miss you. >.<
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Education Fair
:D Here's the dig, I WORKED AT THE EDUCATION FAIR PROMOTING ATC.
Hehehe. Well, I guess I'm psyched about it coz it was a major experience for me and it kind of boosts my self-confidence to actually come up to people's faces and say "Hi. Good morning. ATC? We offer A-Levels, Law and Business Studies" *smiles* I swear to God i've never said the same shit for the billionth time before! Fuh! It was amazing how I convinced myself that "I DON'T LOOK STUPID. JUST GO AND WORK. YOU'RE BEING PAID FOR THIS." Lol.
Amazing.
However, at the end of the day, I find it as a blessing to be given this chance because, I don't only get working experience, I get to also taste the feel to be a promoter and be proud of my school. I get to work up my Public Relation. That's friggin awesome man! Woo!
Anyways, it was on the 25th and the 26th of June 2011, a Saturday and a Sunday from 11am to 6pm. :) The day started off with me and Reen getting up early and we were so excited to do this job. We got ourselves neatly trimmed as a lady and we got dressed all formerly, and looking like lawyers. Hell yeah! LAWYERS. :D We were wearing slacks and button down shirt - black for me and white on her - our hairs were tied up and we put on make ups! - well, Reen with her girly looks and I just slapped on a bit. HEHE. As usual. And when we're done, we walked to MidValley, like professionals on the move and appeared at the Exhibition Hall kind of a little early. Lol.
At first, we panicked coz we couldn't find any of our lecturers which meant we couldn't get in the hall before 11am. We didn't have the passes to enter. So we roamed and called and talked among ourselves and fretted and eventually, the one person we were supposed to find was always waiting by the railing of the escalators searching for us too. HAHA.
Like OMG y'know. The dude looks EXACTLY like Daryl!! :O Only, he's short and he talks a lot like Chef Wan. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. :DD But nontheless, he was cute in his ways and he knows how to make himself comfortable around us and vice versa. ^^ We were standing there and when we turned, we noticed this dude - Abral - staring at us and he asked "You guys are from ATC?" then we nodded and explained how we were trying to contact our lecturers. With that he burst out into chuckles and said "I have your tags" LOL. Bad timing man. :P
When we got our tags, we entered the hall and we were assigned to fill up the paper bags that were meant for us to distribute when the event started. It was fun cooperating with seniors and laughing along and getting to know each other and making ourselves look busy. :D But the sad part was I had to leave Sweets the whole day while I work. I told myself that I wasn't going to text anybody, not even him while I work because my goal then was to promote and introduce ATC to people. I have to be on the go and on the move. Hell yeah. So I kept my phone in my bag and stuffed the damn thing in the cabinet supplied.
Like I said, great experience, yet on the first day, the Saturday itself, there wasn't much people hence, it wasn't as hectic as I expected. I thought there was gonna be weird people coming over, getting interviewed, chitty-chatting with us promoters, but no. All we did was finish up the paper bags we filled up, made sure none was left and perhaps, help guide lost applicants who has an interest with the offer our college has. We all did exactly that, and at the end of the day - MY FOOT WAS SORE.
Reen and I made it home, took out bath, I can't remember whether we had dinner, but by then, we already bunked outselves to bed. I even remembered how I fell asleep, and Daryl called while I was in Dreamland and I remembered that I argued and refused to go back to sleep because I wanted to talk to him. Which actually I was sleeping off on him while he was talking. I don't remember what he said though. HEHEHEHE. That's what you get for talking to a zombie. Lol!
THEN SECOND DAY ARRIVED.
Dear God, I didn't want to get up at all on Sunday! I was sooooooo EXHAUSTED! My whole body was aching, especially my foot. But one way or another, I wanted the money, so I came. :D Once again, we washed up, dressed up - in skirt this time and a formal top, Reen in red and moi in brown - and made up exactly like the day before. Again we walked to the venue and since we had our tags this time, we were allowed to enter the premises and waited at our booth for the materials to arrive before we actually start working. ^^ So when it did, we worked! Same shit.
However, on the second day, THERE WAS A LOT OF PEOPLE. It was like attending the final day of a Mega Sale in an expensive boutique or something so. It's crazy! From the role of a promoter, we had to be advisors and guiders. The lecturers we had were limited but people were lining up, intending to have a short counsel. But due to the inability to serve the crown immediately, we as promoters ranked outselves up and did the job. We spoke to them. We consulted them on the fees, the convinience, the education itself, the subjects - EVERYTHING. Fun step to take, yet scary coz you might mislead the person.
We also get the chance to be put on a spot of being the boss for a while, but being that is hard coz you gotta always be alert and watch out to what the lecturers may or may not need and it was a responsibility for a boss to make sure things were running smoothly. Okay, maybe the word "boss" would be such a woo to use. Let see...hrmm..Student Manager? LOL. That sounds a bit better. EHEHEH. Yeah...
Then my bestfriend came!! :D She had a talk with my law lecturer of course, Mr. Siva. She was convinced about what he said but what the hell, it's his job to be convincing. LOL. That's why i'm in ATC eh? ;) So anyways, I just blogged about this coz one, my blogs been abandoned for a while now coz i've been busy with things and well two, I just wanna share this or so to say remember this in the future in case I forget. xP
PS. I earned RM200 baby! In 2 days! :O I'm awesome. But yet...we haven't got our paycheck. HEH. ^^ God bless!
TOODLES!
Hehehe. Well, I guess I'm psyched about it coz it was a major experience for me and it kind of boosts my self-confidence to actually come up to people's faces and say "Hi. Good morning. ATC? We offer A-Levels, Law and Business Studies" *smiles* I swear to God i've never said the same shit for the billionth time before! Fuh! It was amazing how I convinced myself that "I DON'T LOOK STUPID. JUST GO AND WORK. YOU'RE BEING PAID FOR THIS." Lol.
Amazing.
However, at the end of the day, I find it as a blessing to be given this chance because, I don't only get working experience, I get to also taste the feel to be a promoter and be proud of my school. I get to work up my Public Relation. That's friggin awesome man! Woo!
Anyways, it was on the 25th and the 26th of June 2011, a Saturday and a Sunday from 11am to 6pm. :) The day started off with me and Reen getting up early and we were so excited to do this job. We got ourselves neatly trimmed as a lady and we got dressed all formerly, and looking like lawyers. Hell yeah! LAWYERS. :D We were wearing slacks and button down shirt - black for me and white on her - our hairs were tied up and we put on make ups! - well, Reen with her girly looks and I just slapped on a bit. HEHE. As usual. And when we're done, we walked to MidValley, like professionals on the move and appeared at the Exhibition Hall kind of a little early. Lol.
At first, we panicked coz we couldn't find any of our lecturers which meant we couldn't get in the hall before 11am. We didn't have the passes to enter. So we roamed and called and talked among ourselves and fretted and eventually, the one person we were supposed to find was always waiting by the railing of the escalators searching for us too. HAHA.
Like OMG y'know. The dude looks EXACTLY like Daryl!! :O Only, he's short and he talks a lot like Chef Wan. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. :DD But nontheless, he was cute in his ways and he knows how to make himself comfortable around us and vice versa. ^^ We were standing there and when we turned, we noticed this dude - Abral - staring at us and he asked "You guys are from ATC?" then we nodded and explained how we were trying to contact our lecturers. With that he burst out into chuckles and said "I have your tags" LOL. Bad timing man. :P
When we got our tags, we entered the hall and we were assigned to fill up the paper bags that were meant for us to distribute when the event started. It was fun cooperating with seniors and laughing along and getting to know each other and making ourselves look busy. :D But the sad part was I had to leave Sweets the whole day while I work. I told myself that I wasn't going to text anybody, not even him while I work because my goal then was to promote and introduce ATC to people. I have to be on the go and on the move. Hell yeah. So I kept my phone in my bag and stuffed the damn thing in the cabinet supplied.
Like I said, great experience, yet on the first day, the Saturday itself, there wasn't much people hence, it wasn't as hectic as I expected. I thought there was gonna be weird people coming over, getting interviewed, chitty-chatting with us promoters, but no. All we did was finish up the paper bags we filled up, made sure none was left and perhaps, help guide lost applicants who has an interest with the offer our college has. We all did exactly that, and at the end of the day - MY FOOT WAS SORE.
Reen and I made it home, took out bath, I can't remember whether we had dinner, but by then, we already bunked outselves to bed. I even remembered how I fell asleep, and Daryl called while I was in Dreamland and I remembered that I argued and refused to go back to sleep because I wanted to talk to him. Which actually I was sleeping off on him while he was talking. I don't remember what he said though. HEHEHEHE. That's what you get for talking to a zombie. Lol!
THEN SECOND DAY ARRIVED.
Dear God, I didn't want to get up at all on Sunday! I was sooooooo EXHAUSTED! My whole body was aching, especially my foot. But one way or another, I wanted the money, so I came. :D Once again, we washed up, dressed up - in skirt this time and a formal top, Reen in red and moi in brown - and made up exactly like the day before. Again we walked to the venue and since we had our tags this time, we were allowed to enter the premises and waited at our booth for the materials to arrive before we actually start working. ^^ So when it did, we worked! Same shit.
However, on the second day, THERE WAS A LOT OF PEOPLE. It was like attending the final day of a Mega Sale in an expensive boutique or something so. It's crazy! From the role of a promoter, we had to be advisors and guiders. The lecturers we had were limited but people were lining up, intending to have a short counsel. But due to the inability to serve the crown immediately, we as promoters ranked outselves up and did the job. We spoke to them. We consulted them on the fees, the convinience, the education itself, the subjects - EVERYTHING. Fun step to take, yet scary coz you might mislead the person.
We also get the chance to be put on a spot of being the boss for a while, but being that is hard coz you gotta always be alert and watch out to what the lecturers may or may not need and it was a responsibility for a boss to make sure things were running smoothly. Okay, maybe the word "boss" would be such a woo to use. Let see...hrmm..Student Manager? LOL. That sounds a bit better. EHEHEH. Yeah...
Then my bestfriend came!! :D She had a talk with my law lecturer of course, Mr. Siva. She was convinced about what he said but what the hell, it's his job to be convincing. LOL. That's why i'm in ATC eh? ;) So anyways, I just blogged about this coz one, my blogs been abandoned for a while now coz i've been busy with things and well two, I just wanna share this or so to say remember this in the future in case I forget. xP
PS. I earned RM200 baby! In 2 days! :O I'm awesome. But yet...we haven't got our paycheck. HEH. ^^ God bless!
TOODLES!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
missing you..
there would come this moment where when i stop thinking of you, you tend to flood back into my mind like some sort of virus. there would come this time when i start thinking of you, you make my heart ache like pink prickling from the inside of it. why is it that i feel such way? why is it that my feelings are different from when i was in a relationship with another in the pass? i never felt such intensity with the person i was with before. i never missed him like i miss you. i don't ache from his absence. and when he returns from such absence, i don't jump in delight the way i do with you.
strange must i say? or is it just a confusion that my mind play with me?
i don't know what to agree with. i don't know whether it's wise for me to even feel this way. is it a mental state to ache for the presence of a partner? or do they call it love? funny, many love encounters have i thought were true but when it comes to you my darling, i couldn't say whether it's real. i couldn't say it's you that is the one. or rather i wouldn't? maybe i don't want to jinx you. maybe i want you to be such one that i refuse to think like i typically would with one that i like. but you're not just one to like. i love you. really? im uncertain. help. i need guidance. i don't know whether i want him as the one and well, i do now. i do always i think.
sweetheart, be gone all you want now and make my heart ache. make me crave and long for you and let me see how long this will last. if it's until the day you return, then most likely it is you that i want for always. gasping thought really. how could such young mind think so. how could such little creature know so. i dont know either. im lost. and i want your care because i've not had such from someone like you. as the last one was a heartbreaker. i wish you not be one. i wish you always be the one to bring smiles on my face. genuine smiles though. not one that daily sees on me. not one that friends entice on me. it's one that only a person with love like yours can bring. a love that bitter, sweet, strong, impatient, mad...perhaps that smile now.
be gone and let me miss you. let me see how long i can last. forever may bring good fortune to my heart as it means it's you i want. be gone now. loves from me...
strange must i say? or is it just a confusion that my mind play with me?
i don't know what to agree with. i don't know whether it's wise for me to even feel this way. is it a mental state to ache for the presence of a partner? or do they call it love? funny, many love encounters have i thought were true but when it comes to you my darling, i couldn't say whether it's real. i couldn't say it's you that is the one. or rather i wouldn't? maybe i don't want to jinx you. maybe i want you to be such one that i refuse to think like i typically would with one that i like. but you're not just one to like. i love you. really? im uncertain. help. i need guidance. i don't know whether i want him as the one and well, i do now. i do always i think.
sweetheart, be gone all you want now and make my heart ache. make me crave and long for you and let me see how long this will last. if it's until the day you return, then most likely it is you that i want for always. gasping thought really. how could such young mind think so. how could such little creature know so. i dont know either. im lost. and i want your care because i've not had such from someone like you. as the last one was a heartbreaker. i wish you not be one. i wish you always be the one to bring smiles on my face. genuine smiles though. not one that daily sees on me. not one that friends entice on me. it's one that only a person with love like yours can bring. a love that bitter, sweet, strong, impatient, mad...perhaps that smile now.
be gone and let me miss you. let me see how long i can last. forever may bring good fortune to my heart as it means it's you i want. be gone now. loves from me...
Monday, May 16, 2011
Alvin Chacko's FUN 18th. HELL YEAH.
It was the day I would remember for life. :D [Don't perasan now Alvin]
Though it was a birthday of this boy named Alvin, whom I hardly know but spent his old age with him anyways because he's my friend's "......" HAHA - I honestly had a blast. It began on the morning of 14th May 2011...
I was meeting up with Brandon at Kelana Jaya station where he waited an hour for me just to take a 2 minutes trip to the following station - SORRY - and there's where Alvin the birthday boy went to pick us up before heading off to Reen's house. I know right. It's his effing birthday yet he's still the driver.
I FEEL REALLY BAD. LOL. (NOT) xD
After we arrived at Reen's, we spent a couple of minutes there, saying hello and goodbye to her parents and left for MidValley baby! :D Gawd, I remembered how Alvin teased me NON-STOP that day. What a day I had alright. He's such a bully. HEHE. Wait till I get you after this Alvin. GRR. Weeeeeeee~
Let's see, we were walking there and as ALWAYS, I got nagged by the way I cross the road. -.- HELLO. The car won't knock me okay? I'm like what, the size of an elephant? The driver would be damn blind if he didn't see ME trying to cross. HAHAHAHAHA. Go die la. His car would dent. xD
Anyways, so we were walking and AND AND! Alvin almost puked when he saw puke on MidValley floor. EEEEWWWWWWWW. I know. Disgusting. And the best part: I KNOW HE DOESN'T LIKE PUKE. :D I can so puke at him to make him puke now! nGAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Awesome shit man. Woots! So then the first shop we walked in was the puzzle shop! Went in this blue curtain that unveiled glloowwiiinggg puuzzles. Awesomeness man. I am like SO AMAZED. :D As if i'm never amazed at anything. It's a wonder being me sometimes. LOL. That was when I began to snap pictures of EVERYTHING. :D
The moment of truth where I will catch a person in an ugly face. *evil giggles* AND OMG! DAMN LAH. THE SHOP RIGHT. THEY PLAYED THIS SONG "Fuck you.....fuck you very very muuuccchhhh.." *covers ears runs away* when actually in reality *smile amusingly and sings along* while Alvin says "THERE'S KIDS IN THE STORE" ROFLMAO!!
The poor guy. :D
This dilemma then turned around to him not being able to decide what to eat on his own birthday. -_________________________- Worst than girl man. He can't choose what to eat! And guess where we ended up??? KFC. =.= While eating, we talked about "Alvin's FAVOURITE girl in the world" if you know who I mean Reen, *sniff sniff**DIES*, then we saw this couple eating with EIGHT ketchups on their table! and when I asked Brandon to look he blardy walked directly up that table stared and walked away. Isn't he such an ass!? LMAO!!! He did the same shit when someone told him that a girl behind him was checking him out. HE TURNED, LOOKED AT HER AS SHE LOOKED BACK, TURN BACK AROUND AND STARTED LAUGHING.
*shakes head* terrible man...
Then the best part for me eventually came around!!! *starwars theme song* ALVIN'S TWIN CAME! :D And not alone. *cheeky smile* He brought his gang along and guess what!!!? HOT GUY MAN! CINDIAN! WOOOOO! *turnn onnn* Ally should've been there! Dang! Too bad I didn't get to say hi. I just buat bodoh, smile smile, shake hand with twin, swoon over the fact that they look alike, but got different hair, twin wears specs and I think Alvin is bigger? LMAO. Oops. xD And then we parted ways. SOBS. We went to play pool. NGAAAHAHAHAHA! It was cool to shoot photos in there, catching fugly pics of Dom's NON-ass, Brandon's RM20 NON-changed hair, Cutie Dalila and well, highlight of this blog: THEM.
Reen is gonna kill me. She said ONE or TWO. I made it onto a collage of pics. LMAO. :D *coughs* Let's pray no one stalks my blog. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Especially Mr. Siva. :O
Okay, moving on! HEHE. After playing pool, Alvin's twin: Calvin, was called by Reen to come over. I swear I flipped like crazy bitch in my stomach when I heard that news coz that measn HOT GUY'S COMING. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! xD (oh shit, i'm hungry right now -.-) then then THEN, they came. *SMMIILLLLEEEEEEE* and I snapped pictures like usual, pretending not to go crazy when actually I am! ROFLMAO! But sadly they didn't join us to Reen's house. SOBS. Yes readers, we went back to Reen's house. OH! BUT BEFORE DAT. Doughnuts stop. ;)
I know Alvin. I want them too right now. :P My stomach is growling like got croc inside! FULAMAK!
The plan was to surprise Alvin with the cake back at the house. Heck, I couldn't tell whether he was surprised or not coz he was soooo into the doughnuts. He was so blardy paranoid i'd eat it all! WOO! I would though, but I share too. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD At least I think I do. AHAHAHA. Then we had a cake ceremony! Weeeeeeeeeeeee~
Ain't it nice to have cake on ur face now Bear? HAHA. Or should I call you chocolate? And Reen Marshmellow? *gasP* xD
LMAO! Okay okay. I should really move out of people's lovey dovey story. :P So we spent the whole day laughing more after that. Lepak in Reen's room where Dom was turned on, Brandon was sucked into the world of games his laptop had sufficiently provided him and well, Chacko Bear was sleeping nicely on Reen's pillow, convinced that he could drive me back to the station. HAHAHAHAHA.
And the funniest!!! DOMINIQUE!
This is the most epic picture I'LL EVER HAVE! Holymacaroni!!!
And then finally, it was time to leave so we all went downstairs to cool down. BUT. Alvin managed to trick Reen that she was locked outside! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! And then when she came in laughing and all high, SHE BANGED HER NOSE INTO ALVIN'S LARGE ARMS. *rubs my own nose. ouch* The she laughed more, rubbing her nose, Alvin tried to put a pack of Lychee drink on her nose to cool it down, which made Reen laughed MORE. Idiot. :D Here's a snap of them. ;)
So that's the day...a memorable day...:) I love being the photographer. HAHA.
God bless. :D
Though it was a birthday of this boy named Alvin, whom I hardly know but spent his old age with him anyways because he's my friend's "......" HAHA - I honestly had a blast. It began on the morning of 14th May 2011...
I was meeting up with Brandon at Kelana Jaya station where he waited an hour for me just to take a 2 minutes trip to the following station - SORRY - and there's where Alvin the birthday boy went to pick us up before heading off to Reen's house. I know right. It's his effing birthday yet he's still the driver.
I FEEL REALLY BAD. LOL. (NOT) xD
After we arrived at Reen's, we spent a couple of minutes there, saying hello and goodbye to her parents and left for MidValley baby! :D Gawd, I remembered how Alvin teased me NON-STOP that day. What a day I had alright. He's such a bully. HEHE. Wait till I get you after this Alvin. GRR. Weeeeeeee~
Let's see, we were walking there and as ALWAYS, I got nagged by the way I cross the road. -.- HELLO. The car won't knock me okay? I'm like what, the size of an elephant? The driver would be damn blind if he didn't see ME trying to cross. HAHAHAHAHA. Go die la. His car would dent. xD
Anyways, so we were walking and AND AND! Alvin almost puked when he saw puke on MidValley floor. EEEEWWWWWWWW. I know. Disgusting. And the best part: I KNOW HE DOESN'T LIKE PUKE. :D I can so puke at him to make him puke now! nGAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH! Awesome shit man. Woots! So then the first shop we walked in was the puzzle shop! Went in this blue curtain that unveiled glloowwiiinggg puuzzles. Awesomeness man. I am like SO AMAZED. :D As if i'm never amazed at anything. It's a wonder being me sometimes. LOL. That was when I began to snap pictures of EVERYTHING. :D
The moment of truth where I will catch a person in an ugly face. *evil giggles* AND OMG! DAMN LAH. THE SHOP RIGHT. THEY PLAYED THIS SONG "Fuck you.....fuck you very very muuuccchhhh.." *covers ears runs away* when actually in reality *smile amusingly and sings along* while Alvin says "THERE'S KIDS IN THE STORE" ROFLMAO!!
The poor guy. :D
This dilemma then turned around to him not being able to decide what to eat on his own birthday. -_________________________- Worst than girl man. He can't choose what to eat! And guess where we ended up??? KFC. =.= While eating, we talked about "Alvin's FAVOURITE girl in the world" if you know who I mean Reen, *sniff sniff**DIES*, then we saw this couple eating with EIGHT ketchups on their table! and when I asked Brandon to look he blardy walked directly up that table stared and walked away. Isn't he such an ass!? LMAO!!! He did the same shit when someone told him that a girl behind him was checking him out. HE TURNED, LOOKED AT HER AS SHE LOOKED BACK, TURN BACK AROUND AND STARTED LAUGHING.
*shakes head* terrible man...
Then the best part for me eventually came around!!! *starwars theme song* ALVIN'S TWIN CAME! :D And not alone. *cheeky smile* He brought his gang along and guess what!!!? HOT GUY MAN! CINDIAN! WOOOOO! *turnn onnn* Ally should've been there! Dang! Too bad I didn't get to say hi. I just buat bodoh, smile smile, shake hand with twin, swoon over the fact that they look alike, but got different hair, twin wears specs and I think Alvin is bigger? LMAO. Oops. xD And then we parted ways. SOBS. We went to play pool. NGAAAHAHAHAHA! It was cool to shoot photos in there, catching fugly pics of Dom's NON-ass, Brandon's RM20 NON-changed hair, Cutie Dalila and well, highlight of this blog: THEM.
Reen is gonna kill me. She said ONE or TWO. I made it onto a collage of pics. LMAO. :D *coughs* Let's pray no one stalks my blog. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Especially Mr. Siva. :O
Okay, moving on! HEHE. After playing pool, Alvin's twin: Calvin, was called by Reen to come over. I swear I flipped like crazy bitch in my stomach when I heard that news coz that measn HOT GUY'S COMING. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! xD (oh shit, i'm hungry right now -.-) then then THEN, they came. *SMMIILLLLEEEEEEE* and I snapped pictures like usual, pretending not to go crazy when actually I am! ROFLMAO! But sadly they didn't join us to Reen's house. SOBS. Yes readers, we went back to Reen's house. OH! BUT BEFORE DAT. Doughnuts stop. ;)
I know Alvin. I want them too right now. :P My stomach is growling like got croc inside! FULAMAK!
The plan was to surprise Alvin with the cake back at the house. Heck, I couldn't tell whether he was surprised or not coz he was soooo into the doughnuts. He was so blardy paranoid i'd eat it all! WOO! I would though, but I share too. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD At least I think I do. AHAHAHA. Then we had a cake ceremony! Weeeeeeeeeeeee~
Ain't it nice to have cake on ur face now Bear? HAHA. Or should I call you chocolate? And Reen Marshmellow? *gasP* xD
LMAO! Okay okay. I should really move out of people's lovey dovey story. :P So we spent the whole day laughing more after that. Lepak in Reen's room where Dom was turned on, Brandon was sucked into the world of games his laptop had sufficiently provided him and well, Chacko Bear was sleeping nicely on Reen's pillow, convinced that he could drive me back to the station. HAHAHAHAHA.
And the funniest!!! DOMINIQUE!
This is the most epic picture I'LL EVER HAVE! Holymacaroni!!!
And then finally, it was time to leave so we all went downstairs to cool down. BUT. Alvin managed to trick Reen that she was locked outside! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! And then when she came in laughing and all high, SHE BANGED HER NOSE INTO ALVIN'S LARGE ARMS. *rubs my own nose. ouch* The she laughed more, rubbing her nose, Alvin tried to put a pack of Lychee drink on her nose to cool it down, which made Reen laughed MORE. Idiot. :D Here's a snap of them. ;)
So that's the day...a memorable day...:) I love being the photographer. HAHA.
God bless. :D
Thursday, May 5, 2011
My Blessed 18th. :)
Well, I could promise you that it's a day that i'll never forget. :D HEHE.
It all began on the day before my birthday. Epic right? Lol. It was a Sunday and I was given the chance to attend evening mass in church (Praise the Lord for that) and for me, that was good enough as a gift for myself. But shockingly, my relatives, well...after mass uncle brought me to CentrePoint and "bought dinner" when actually he was ALSO planning to get cake. Lol. Funny shit man. I was like the blur-ress female ever alive. They walked into a bakery store which I believe he wanted to get breakfast for the following day BUT, he walked in and walked out shaking his head off. I guess I couldn't really make out what was happening because I was after all busy with my cell phone chatting with Daryl. HEHE. Then, uncle stormed to Secret Recipe with me unknowingly trailing behind him, and when he walked in he went directly at the cakes.
BAM.
That's when all the mixed puzzles solves. LMAO! I was like "awwwww..you ddidn't have to..." and I was feeling guilty inside because well, ONE: i'm not used to getting stuff from people, especially expensive stuff. TWO: i really didn't expect tthem to give me anything because living in their house was bad enough. THREE: I just really grow up like that. LOL.
So everything was bought and we went home, and after I was cleaned and everything, I Skyped my childhood bestie, THERESA ROM!! Woooo. I miss that darling. :D We were like ranting on and on about nothing and we started singing then suddenly they took out the candles and placed it on the 4 different slices of cake that they bought.
It all began on the day before my birthday. Epic right? Lol. It was a Sunday and I was given the chance to attend evening mass in church (Praise the Lord for that) and for me, that was good enough as a gift for myself. But shockingly, my relatives, well...after mass uncle brought me to CentrePoint and "bought dinner" when actually he was ALSO planning to get cake. Lol. Funny shit man. I was like the blur-ress female ever alive. They walked into a bakery store which I believe he wanted to get breakfast for the following day BUT, he walked in and walked out shaking his head off. I guess I couldn't really make out what was happening because I was after all busy with my cell phone chatting with Daryl. HEHE. Then, uncle stormed to Secret Recipe with me unknowingly trailing behind him, and when he walked in he went directly at the cakes.
BAM.
That's when all the mixed puzzles solves. LMAO! I was like "awwwww..you ddidn't have to..." and I was feeling guilty inside because well, ONE: i'm not used to getting stuff from people, especially expensive stuff. TWO: i really didn't expect tthem to give me anything because living in their house was bad enough. THREE: I just really grow up like that. LOL.
So everything was bought and we went home, and after I was cleaned and everything, I Skyped my childhood bestie, THERESA ROM!! Woooo. I miss that darling. :D We were like ranting on and on about nothing and we started singing then suddenly they took out the candles and placed it on the 4 different slices of cake that they bought.
I was like shock, overwhelmed, happy, sad, blessed and of course thankful for it. :) It felt awkward at first because it wasn't some expectation for me and well, I tried being the birthday girl but it wasn't easy because I was never really treated like one my whole life. Lol. Usually, it'll be a happy birthday wish, hugs and well, the day goes on like normal. But this, the cake [a damned expensive on] THEN they friggin got me a gift too - a memory card for my phone! - [DAMN EXPENSIVE TOO THE LAST TIME I CHECK. RM85 OK! Even if it may be a second hand memory card, it's STILL a memory card]. *sigh* Epic miracle man. LOL.
That's me! :D
Then I went back chatting with Theresa, and we talked on Skype till midnight strike where she would sing me THE SONG. HAHAHAHAHAHA. She's such a cutie sometimes. :P Then Daryl came online on Skype and he wanted to videocam so I hung up with Theresa and let him videocam me. ^^ Not that it was anything special. Pffth. It's so obvious he was faking his oblivion on my birthday. Lol. I have to admit, I was kind of pissed off and frustrated that my own boyfriend didn't greet me on time to it and i'm chatting with him as if I didn't care while I receive all the long bloody notifications of birthday wishes. LOL. I tell you, I wanted to grab his head from my laptop screen, smack it and just say goodnight. -.-
Yes. That's how frustrated I was. I mean, I was on the verge of believing that he didn't know and that's not even what I care. What I care was the fact that he remembers his own EXES' BIRTHDAYS and not MINE. Geez. That's what pissed me off. Ish. But I told myself to calm down eventually because after all, it was JUST a birthday right? Hehe. I was making such a fuss over that. I felt pathetic then. So I just talk to him like normal, then he started bringing up something by saying "There's something about today I can't quite remember" (Such an ass right? He had to be such an ass. T.T) He went ON AND ON AND ON AND ON and he was worst than a girl trying to make a point. ==" Finally, he said he wanted to go to sleep already and we hung up, went offline and I was gonna settle with ignoring him the whole day of my birthday coz I didn't get a wish BUT he had to ruin the plan by calling me with his house phone half hoping that i'll actually not know it's him.
LMAO. Funniest shit ever! He was like "Hello, may I speak to Ms. Kimura?" and I was like "Daryl I know that's you coz you sound like it and no one would actually call me at 1am except you". Then I laughed and he laughed and finally he sang me a birthday song. What the hell right this boy?! :P So my plan to ignore him failed. I couldn't ignore him even when i'm out with my friends for lunch. HEHE.
Well, now we skip to the lunch part. I HAD A WONDERFUL TIME. xDDDDDDD We met up at MidVally - me, Reen, Michelle - and we went to Carl's Jr!! WOO. Burger is like DAMN LARGE!
Yes. That's how frustrated I was. I mean, I was on the verge of believing that he didn't know and that's not even what I care. What I care was the fact that he remembers his own EXES' BIRTHDAYS and not MINE. Geez. That's what pissed me off. Ish. But I told myself to calm down eventually because after all, it was JUST a birthday right? Hehe. I was making such a fuss over that. I felt pathetic then. So I just talk to him like normal, then he started bringing up something by saying "There's something about today I can't quite remember" (Such an ass right? He had to be such an ass. T.T) He went ON AND ON AND ON AND ON and he was worst than a girl trying to make a point. ==" Finally, he said he wanted to go to sleep already and we hung up, went offline and I was gonna settle with ignoring him the whole day of my birthday coz I didn't get a wish BUT he had to ruin the plan by calling me with his house phone half hoping that i'll actually not know it's him.
LMAO. Funniest shit ever! He was like "Hello, may I speak to Ms. Kimura?" and I was like "Daryl I know that's you coz you sound like it and no one would actually call me at 1am except you". Then I laughed and he laughed and finally he sang me a birthday song. What the hell right this boy?! :P So my plan to ignore him failed. I couldn't ignore him even when i'm out with my friends for lunch. HEHE.
Well, now we skip to the lunch part. I HAD A WONDERFUL TIME. xDDDDDDD We met up at MidVally - me, Reen, Michelle - and we went to Carl's Jr!! WOO. Burger is like DAMN LARGE!
For me, it was large enough to supply my tank till the next day! :D That's how satisfying it was. NGAHAHAHAHAHAHA. We ate, gossip, laughed, talked about "lovers" and "ex-lovers" then about class and about what we were gonna do that day. I was half hoping that they take me for a movie, but when I saw the line...FUH! I changed my mind. LMAO. It was soooooo super duper LOOONNGGGG it made me wonder what those people do for a living. They must be that desperate to line that long just for a movie eh? So after we ate, Mich's friend who works somewhere in MidValley called her up asking us to accompany her on her lunchbreak. So we went! Woo! She was at McDonald's and when we reached the place, out minds wanted to eat, but we really couldn't gulp down anything anymore. HAHAHAHA. SO FULL CAN DIE. xD
So then Reen told me that Furqan was on his way. And inside I was so delighted because I wanted him to come in the first place! :D I dunno why but I really wanted that class clown to come. Maybe it's coz he's the guy I bully and it's fun having him around to bully on my birthday. HAHAHA. And the epic part is that HE'S THE ONLY GUY IN OUR OUTING. ROFLMAO!!! When he came, we talked...MORE TALK, tease, gossip (yeah, I know. He's a guy and he gossips. :P) Then we laugh like people who came out from Hotel Bahagia if you know what I mean. HAHAHAHA. xDDDDDDD Then I took his chewing gum!! WOOOO. He got me addicted to it since the first time he gace me one. It was sooo nice and smells sooo nice and well, it's NICE. And I didn't have to pay for expensive gum. ^^
Then we girls went somewhere in the surroundings of MidValley Mall to get Furqan lunch! Wooo! And this time, I didn't get to feel bad because I paid for it! :D Unlike lunch with the girls, Reen bought my lunch, Mich got me a bracelet that said "Faith, Believe, Hope, Love" on it and I gotta say I love it but I feel guilty! Coz I always do! That's my damn problem la. HEHEHEHE.
After Furqan ate lunch, we walked arroouunnnddd and arroouunnd and we ended up at this restaurant called "La Manila" I think. I can't remember. Hehehe. And Fu was being so effing funny saying "OH! We're soooo NOT getting you a cake!" and I cracked up at this lamest joke of the year!! xDD So damn obvious and such a spoiler that boy. ROFLMAO. He was jumping like a little kid some more! FUNNY SHIT PROVIDING HE'S A VERY LARGE GUY. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Soooooo..they got me a slice of DELICIOUS cake. :D We ate ate ate! Oh ya, they sang for me and the whole restaurant turned to look and it was soooo HUMILIATING!!! OMG. I'M NOT A CROWD PERSON! I almost sank under the table! :O Yeah. AND WE CAMWHORED!!! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Smudging Cake On Me. -.-
Full Like Shit After Burger. xD
Blow! Blow!
Reen, Mich, Fu, Me. :3
Ahh...the PLAN B to make Daryl jealous. LMAO.
TOTAL FAIL!
Friday, April 29, 2011
It's almost 1am and i'm still up
I guess i'm just feeling a little disturbed in my mind. Maybe i'm thinking too much? Or rather i'm missing my family? Hell, I don't feel loved at all here. I just miss that feeling where you have a mother who cares for you when you wake up first thing in the morning. Maybe I lost that vibe because of so many fight I had with her over the phone. Maybe it's because of the fact that some people love inventing twisted stories to my parents making them hate me more each day. I don't find this as any bullshit trial! I know saying this would probably suck because firstly, i'm not supposed to doubt God that He can help me through. Secondly, i'm not supposed to hate every wrong things that's happening because it's the one thing that helps me grow up!
*sigh*
I just feel so down. I don't know. Maybe I should be places in a ward. You know, the mental ward? I miss the times where i'd be at church alone on Sunday afternoons, waiting for my band mates to arrive while I just silently remove my thoughts for Jesus to hear. Then i'd feel so much better. I'd feel so deliberated I just smile the whole day. Heck, it's not possible NOT to smile when i'm in church. It's the one things I love about putting myself there.
But here...I don't even have the bloody time or even transport to visit Jesus. I love You Lord, I do and I keep saying and maing broken promises about coming to church on Sundays..but I always end up failing that task. I can never fulfill them here. NEVER. And the fact that i'm turning eighteen this Monday...I just really want to go to church this Sunday, tell You how much i've missed serving You Lord, and worship You my Lord, there's so much pain and burden in my heart that I feel so alone and lost. I want You to come into my life Lord, I want You to be here with me again, guide me and tell me the right things. I want to be able to praise You!
God, I hate shedding tears before I sleep. It sucks. There goes my eyes for college. Haizz..my parents are coming next Friday. I don't know...maybe a month ago i'd be ecstatic about it but now, it's just a piece of crap knowing they'll be here. I don't want to face them if they refuse to treat me as the person I am. Hell, my mother can't even say any decent words with me on skype earlier. I was peacefully enjoying my evening, until she videocalled for some group cam reason with her sister which HAD to involve me, then when her sister couldn't get things straight with the cam, my own mother didn't even have the strength to talk to me. That shows how much hatred she has for me. SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF COMING HERE AT ALL MOM? WHAT'S THE DAMN POINT?
I'm so sick and tired of everything. I just am..the thought of qutting college is intimidating but the thought of quitting then going HOME, now that just sucks. I don't want to live like this. I don't want to sleep everynight crying. I don't want to close my eyes with pain in my heart. I DON'T WANT THAT.
*sigh*
Misunderstandings are just effing shit man. *yawn* Here comes my sleep. Finally.
Goodnight world.
*sigh*
I just feel so down. I don't know. Maybe I should be places in a ward. You know, the mental ward? I miss the times where i'd be at church alone on Sunday afternoons, waiting for my band mates to arrive while I just silently remove my thoughts for Jesus to hear. Then i'd feel so much better. I'd feel so deliberated I just smile the whole day. Heck, it's not possible NOT to smile when i'm in church. It's the one things I love about putting myself there.
But here...I don't even have the bloody time or even transport to visit Jesus. I love You Lord, I do and I keep saying and maing broken promises about coming to church on Sundays..but I always end up failing that task. I can never fulfill them here. NEVER. And the fact that i'm turning eighteen this Monday...I just really want to go to church this Sunday, tell You how much i've missed serving You Lord, and worship You my Lord, there's so much pain and burden in my heart that I feel so alone and lost. I want You to come into my life Lord, I want You to be here with me again, guide me and tell me the right things. I want to be able to praise You!
God, I hate shedding tears before I sleep. It sucks. There goes my eyes for college. Haizz..my parents are coming next Friday. I don't know...maybe a month ago i'd be ecstatic about it but now, it's just a piece of crap knowing they'll be here. I don't want to face them if they refuse to treat me as the person I am. Hell, my mother can't even say any decent words with me on skype earlier. I was peacefully enjoying my evening, until she videocalled for some group cam reason with her sister which HAD to involve me, then when her sister couldn't get things straight with the cam, my own mother didn't even have the strength to talk to me. That shows how much hatred she has for me. SO WHAT'S THE POINT OF COMING HERE AT ALL MOM? WHAT'S THE DAMN POINT?
I'm so sick and tired of everything. I just am..the thought of qutting college is intimidating but the thought of quitting then going HOME, now that just sucks. I don't want to live like this. I don't want to sleep everynight crying. I don't want to close my eyes with pain in my heart. I DON'T WANT THAT.
*sigh*
Misunderstandings are just effing shit man. *yawn* Here comes my sleep. Finally.
Goodnight world.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
I have a friggin STALKER. -.-
LOL. Why is my life always surrounded by stalkers? :P or should I say fanatic stalker for I don't know what reason. I mean, I'M A NORMAL PERSON. LEAVE!! :O
Well, it all started from a friggin video in YouTube that wasn't even suppose to be there! *gasp!* I know. Lame. I was performing for some church sale obviously, but my co-singer HAD to put it up on her YouTube page. So not cool man. I didn't even know about it until I researched myself! HAHAHAHAHA. Idiot right? To RESEARCH YOUSELF?! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Boredom may struck at times. So what the hell. :D
Anyways, so this video I showed my cousin, and THEN SHE HAD TO SHOW HER BFF. AND NOW SHE'S MY FRIGGIN STALKER. FANATIC STALKER. LMAO. It's cute in a way, and then it gets annoying. She's probably reading this now, but so what? It's like the coolest way to annoy her back. Ngahaha! Plus, she's promoting my blog in her blog! Dang girl. -_____________________-
LOL. I feel so kiddish right now. Some of the lines in here comes from the songs i'm listening to right now. HEH. Ok then. That's it for today's post. I gotta get on with homework. HAIZ. And you know..texting sumbooodeee. HEHEHE.
Toodles!
Well, it all started from a friggin video in YouTube that wasn't even suppose to be there! *gasp!* I know. Lame. I was performing for some church sale obviously, but my co-singer HAD to put it up on her YouTube page. So not cool man. I didn't even know about it until I researched myself! HAHAHAHAHA. Idiot right? To RESEARCH YOUSELF?! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Boredom may struck at times. So what the hell. :D
Anyways, so this video I showed my cousin, and THEN SHE HAD TO SHOW HER BFF. AND NOW SHE'S MY FRIGGIN STALKER. FANATIC STALKER. LMAO. It's cute in a way, and then it gets annoying. She's probably reading this now, but so what? It's like the coolest way to annoy her back. Ngahaha! Plus, she's promoting my blog in her blog! Dang girl. -_____________________-
LOL. I feel so kiddish right now. Some of the lines in here comes from the songs i'm listening to right now. HEH. Ok then. That's it for today's post. I gotta get on with homework. HAIZ. And you know..texting sumbooodeee. HEHEHE.
Toodles!
Saturday, April 9, 2011
It's Official?
I just realised something..
I never made it clear in my blog that I have a boyfriend? LMAO. It's so damn hard to get use to calling him that. He makes it so easy though calling me his girl and calling me sweet names. SO HARD FOR ME. -.-
How is it that i'm not normal with this feeling? How is it that I blush ALL THE TIME when he makes a remark on something so simple?
Despite the complaints, I actually love feeling this way. It keeps me away from the troubles reality has. But sometimes, having him doing this kind of sucks too coz he's not by my side at all to actually make those remarks real. *sigh*
I wanna go home. I don't wanna go home.
LOL.
So yeah..I think it's official with him though coz we've let the whole world know about it through Facebook on the 31st March 2011. :P I know, i'm counting dates! How pathetic have I become?! LMAO. Which reminds me to add that we've survive both irritating attitudes for 2 months now. EHEHEHE. I hope he last coz I really don't think I like him. *giggles* Hidden meaning would be: 1.3.4. NGAHAHA. Whoever doesn't get this, then it's your loss. :D
^^ Have a wonderful day bitches! Toodles!
I never made it clear in my blog that I have a boyfriend? LMAO. It's so damn hard to get use to calling him that. He makes it so easy though calling me his girl and calling me sweet names. SO HARD FOR ME. -.-
How is it that i'm not normal with this feeling? How is it that I blush ALL THE TIME when he makes a remark on something so simple?
Despite the complaints, I actually love feeling this way. It keeps me away from the troubles reality has. But sometimes, having him doing this kind of sucks too coz he's not by my side at all to actually make those remarks real. *sigh*
I wanna go home. I don't wanna go home.
LOL.
So yeah..I think it's official with him though coz we've let the whole world know about it through Facebook on the 31st March 2011. :P I know, i'm counting dates! How pathetic have I become?! LMAO. Which reminds me to add that we've survive both irritating attitudes for 2 months now. EHEHEHE. I hope he last coz I really don't think I like him. *giggles* Hidden meaning would be: 1.3.4. NGAHAHA. Whoever doesn't get this, then it's your loss. :D
^^ Have a wonderful day bitches! Toodles!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
gayboy's 18th
Today is gayboy's - Furqan Aree - a good friend of mine's 18th birthday. Well, supposedly, birthdays are meant to be happy and memorable right? But today seemed to be UNFORTUNATE, happy and memorable for me. HAHAHAHAHA.
The unfortunate part began at the time I bumped into Allysha in college. Damn. We wanted to go for mcD to have breakfast. So we went down to the lobby. There, we saw all our gang sitting at the usual table. LMAO. Noisiest one there too. Some of them wanted to tag along, so the more the merrier right? :D BUT. YEAH..BUT. -.- When we reached mcD, THE LINE DAMN LONG YOU KNOW. THOSE PEOPLE LIKE BLOODY ROBOTS LINED UP TILL OUTSIDE THE DOOR. Hahahahaha! So me, Titi and Ally decided to check out the other mcD at the end of Petaling Street, just in case the line is not long there. So we walked and when we reached there, LINE SUPER PANJANG ALSO. ==" Titi was so damn disappointed. He really wanted his morning coffee. LOL. Hence, we made our minds to go to 7-eleven coz there's fresh latte there and I can also buy that RM0.70 Kaya Bun. :DDDDD cheap and delicious.
THEN, Titi seemed to purposely took his time to heat up our food. He was enjoying his time with the microwave!! T.T There was only 5 minutes left to walk back! Plus, there's this 2 idiots who kept looking at me and Ally and was asking us to buy bread for them. Go to hell those two. Geez. THEN WE RUSHED BACK WHILE EATING. Lol. When we're almost at the college entrace, just merely 10 steps left by crossing the road, Titi saw Mr. Sara walking rapidly into college. He started running at cursing that we're late. We're gonna do performance. WE'RE GONNA DIE. So I ran with him! And without noticing my PHONE FLEW OUT MY POCKET AND BOUNCED AND WHEN I TURNED TO LOOK AT WHAT CAME OUT, MY PHONE WAS SLIPPING DOWN A DRAIN HOLE AS IF IT WAS WHISPERING "Bye Bye!" TO ME. =="
So like in the movies, I ran backwards and yelled for my phone. In the pressure of rushing, I immediately lifted the metal covers of the drain like no one's business. LMAO! IN FRONT OF COLLEGE OKAY. Hahahahahaha! Then I was gonna bend down to grab my phone that was sitting peacefully on top of some greenish slime - thank God the drain wasn't filled with water - when Titi yelled for me not to and he dumped all the food he was carrying into my arms and he went down the drain to grab it for me. Isn't that INSANE???!!
:O Then another guy came along to help me cover the drain back and I couldn't thank him enough. That damn cover was heavy like shit. -.- Yeah..so then I rushed up to class and TEACHER WASN'T THERE YET. Damn. So I go wash of the shit that was stuck on the back of my phone and pleaded myself not to go nuts as it was a new phone. Sobs. But thank God once again, my phone is still alive and functioning well.
The worst part eventually came in: MR SARA WASN'T TEACHING CLASS TODAY. MR SIVA IS. @#$%^& Damn shit right? Go through all that trouble with an almost dead phone tragedy for NOTHING. -.-"
That was of course the beginning part of today's adventure. After class was even more epic as we went to celebrate Furqan's birthday during lunch at Secret Recipe. :D My very first birthday celebration here in KL with new friends. I feel awesome. Hehe!
Well. Me and Reen went to get the cake at first. We didn't buy it from SR because it's damn expensive so we got Fufu a cheap cake. HAHAHAHA. Not so cheap la. At least it tasted good. Uhm..despite the banana in it. LOL. He only found out about the cake after we finished eating lunch and when he did, he rejoiced like a little boy who've never seen a cake in his life. Priceless man! xDD Mich then set the candles up and birthday boy lit them happily.
The moment of his 18th-ness came along after that as we sang for him LOUDLY - there was only 6 of us but it seemed as if we owned the whole restaurant - then he made such a funny wish I had to crack away. ROFLMAO. Then we ate, had talks of honesty among each other, camwhored, LOL, then..we dared him.
Dare: Go to the second floor, look down at where we're standing, and yell "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY Y'ALL!!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!! Too bad he didn't do it there. He went out to the entrance to do it though it wasn't much of yelling. He was so damn embarrassed. :P We snapped numbers of pics of him. :D
Then at the carpark, he did a strip show which nauseated me as I laughed and then he decided to take the dare of pushups! HAHAHA! HE CAN MANAGE ONLY 3! LMAO!!!
After that..we parted our separate ways..AWWHHH..aiin't today memorable? :DDDDDD
Love having new buddies whom share the same personality. :D GAYBOY. ROFLMAO.
The unfortunate part began at the time I bumped into Allysha in college. Damn. We wanted to go for mcD to have breakfast. So we went down to the lobby. There, we saw all our gang sitting at the usual table. LMAO. Noisiest one there too. Some of them wanted to tag along, so the more the merrier right? :D BUT. YEAH..BUT. -.- When we reached mcD, THE LINE DAMN LONG YOU KNOW. THOSE PEOPLE LIKE BLOODY ROBOTS LINED UP TILL OUTSIDE THE DOOR. Hahahahaha! So me, Titi and Ally decided to check out the other mcD at the end of Petaling Street, just in case the line is not long there. So we walked and when we reached there, LINE SUPER PANJANG ALSO. ==" Titi was so damn disappointed. He really wanted his morning coffee. LOL. Hence, we made our minds to go to 7-eleven coz there's fresh latte there and I can also buy that RM0.70 Kaya Bun. :DDDDD cheap and delicious.
THEN, Titi seemed to purposely took his time to heat up our food. He was enjoying his time with the microwave!! T.T There was only 5 minutes left to walk back! Plus, there's this 2 idiots who kept looking at me and Ally and was asking us to buy bread for them. Go to hell those two. Geez. THEN WE RUSHED BACK WHILE EATING. Lol. When we're almost at the college entrace, just merely 10 steps left by crossing the road, Titi saw Mr. Sara walking rapidly into college. He started running at cursing that we're late. We're gonna do performance. WE'RE GONNA DIE. So I ran with him! And without noticing my PHONE FLEW OUT MY POCKET AND BOUNCED AND WHEN I TURNED TO LOOK AT WHAT CAME OUT, MY PHONE WAS SLIPPING DOWN A DRAIN HOLE AS IF IT WAS WHISPERING "Bye Bye!" TO ME. =="
So like in the movies, I ran backwards and yelled for my phone. In the pressure of rushing, I immediately lifted the metal covers of the drain like no one's business. LMAO! IN FRONT OF COLLEGE OKAY. Hahahahahaha! Then I was gonna bend down to grab my phone that was sitting peacefully on top of some greenish slime - thank God the drain wasn't filled with water - when Titi yelled for me not to and he dumped all the food he was carrying into my arms and he went down the drain to grab it for me. Isn't that INSANE???!!
:O Then another guy came along to help me cover the drain back and I couldn't thank him enough. That damn cover was heavy like shit. -.- Yeah..so then I rushed up to class and TEACHER WASN'T THERE YET. Damn. So I go wash of the shit that was stuck on the back of my phone and pleaded myself not to go nuts as it was a new phone. Sobs. But thank God once again, my phone is still alive and functioning well.
The worst part eventually came in: MR SARA WASN'T TEACHING CLASS TODAY. MR SIVA IS. @#$%^& Damn shit right? Go through all that trouble with an almost dead phone tragedy for NOTHING. -.-"
That was of course the beginning part of today's adventure. After class was even more epic as we went to celebrate Furqan's birthday during lunch at Secret Recipe. :D My very first birthday celebration here in KL with new friends. I feel awesome. Hehe!
Well. Me and Reen went to get the cake at first. We didn't buy it from SR because it's damn expensive so we got Fufu a cheap cake. HAHAHAHA. Not so cheap la. At least it tasted good. Uhm..despite the banana in it. LOL. He only found out about the cake after we finished eating lunch and when he did, he rejoiced like a little boy who've never seen a cake in his life. Priceless man! xDD Mich then set the candles up and birthday boy lit them happily.
The moment of his 18th-ness came along after that as we sang for him LOUDLY - there was only 6 of us but it seemed as if we owned the whole restaurant - then he made such a funny wish I had to crack away. ROFLMAO. Then we ate, had talks of honesty among each other, camwhored, LOL, then..we dared him.
Dare: Go to the second floor, look down at where we're standing, and yell "IT'S MY BIRTHDAY Y'ALL!!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!! Too bad he didn't do it there. He went out to the entrance to do it though it wasn't much of yelling. He was so damn embarrassed. :P We snapped numbers of pics of him. :D
Then at the carpark, he did a strip show which nauseated me as I laughed and then he decided to take the dare of pushups! HAHAHA! HE CAN MANAGE ONLY 3! LMAO!!!
After that..we parted our separate ways..AWWHHH..aiin't today memorable? :DDDDDD
Love having new buddies whom share the same personality. :D GAYBOY. ROFLMAO.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Just when I thought the road is smooth, the bump ride comes along...
SPM results is today. T.T I know, being in college I shouldn't be worrying about all this. I know I shouldn't be going crazy over this piece of shit crap. But hey, my parents' money is in the line here. I have no hope to get back that RM11000 they spent on my college now. Not with my grades.
I'm like so super disappointed, but what is there to do right? All I can do now is to study hard and get that damn 3A for A-Levels. I'm gonna get that damn degree for free. I'm gonna try to make Daddy see what's worth his money. *sigh* I guess i'm not a winner after all. Okay, time to do law now. Haiz..might as well start studying instead of thinking about some lousy shitty result. :'( I want Dear to come home liaw...
I'm like so super disappointed, but what is there to do right? All I can do now is to study hard and get that damn 3A for A-Levels. I'm gonna get that damn degree for free. I'm gonna try to make Daddy see what's worth his money. *sigh* I guess i'm not a winner after all. Okay, time to do law now. Haiz..might as well start studying instead of thinking about some lousy shitty result. :'( I want Dear to come home liaw...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
bittersweet memories while home
I would wanna blame it on Air Asia. All because of that, all of my plans are cancelled. Okay, i'm just over exaggerating. My flight on Wednesday (16th March, 2011) was supposed to be at 10pm. BUT, there's a delay to midnight flight. Darn that shit. I ain't gonna wait that long. Plus, the woman was quite serious when she said "it is confirmed that the time will not be changed back to 10pm". =.= therefore, aunty changed our flight to the morning one. That broke my heart coz I already planned to sleep through Thursday morning and then go out with Dear in the afternoon. He was gonna take me with him to his dental appointment. :D Isn't that cute?? Lame too maybe but hey, something that we can laugh about together right? I mean, first date: DENTAL CLINIC. ROFLMAO!! But it was cancelled. So yeah...sobs. But he managed to make my day anyways. My following flight was Thursday morning then, at 8.20am. *sigh* I was still upset with the total delay, but I swear I was excited to my bones! xDDDD It was gonna be HOME!! Even when it's just 4 days. Weeeeeeee~ When I arrived, mum did what she promised. SHE TOOK ME TO EAT LAKSA. Hahahahahahaha!! Isn't that brilliant? Muahahahaahahahahaha. Delicious piece of shit I tell ya. And also the taste of good Teh C Peng Special. DAMN. Miss that!! Fuh!
Moving on. I was brought to kampung! Doggies! Awwwwwwwwwwwwhhhh..:D But I didn't stay long of course. I was tired but when we reached home, mum was like "let's go buy you a new shoes". Why of course i'm interested. She seldom says that okay. HEHEHE! So I went, while texting dear. He was sad that I wasn't with him. But what was there to do right? Haizz..but surprisingly his dental wasn't as long as he expected. It was only awhile. Hrmm. Even I was surprised. :D Then he wanted to come over to where me and my mum was shopping! Crazy right?! LMAO! xD But he didn't of course. Coz I was already leaving. :P Then Friday came along. I was supposed to go lunch with him. But after arguing with mum over the phone about the lunch thingy (I was out breakfast with my girls that morning. HEHE), it was cancelled once again. Aren't mother's annoying?? And get this: MUM ASKED WHETHER LUNCH WAS STILL ON WHEN I GOT HOME. =.= Imagine the irritation I felt that moment. Geez. I could kill a cow! Grr..but yeah..I chilled. Coz she said she was gonna let me go to Spring to chaperone the 2 kids on a movie. And that's when I told Dear about it. And he went there for a short time to meet up with me. It was unbelievable for me. I didn't think that i'd ever even make time to see him. *sigh* Even funnier, I didn't think i'd get my first hug in front of starbucks and in front of 2 kids (my bro and cousin) ==" LOL. But I liked the feeling. Dear was warm and had a tough tug when he hugs. Heeeeeeeeeeeee~ *blush blush* And he smelled nice. :P Not the cologne-ish smell. Just you know..normal. Him. Homey. Hrmm...=)
Only one problem. He's got damn cold hands la! LMAO! But that wasn't any issue for me. I just y'know..like the way his thumb would swirl around the top of my thumb when he held my hand. He did that when he took my hand as we walked in the mall. He did the same thing when he managed to take a short break from his duty that night during High School Idol. He was so busy we couldn't really spend time together. But once in a while he would show up to smile. When I entered the school hall that Friday night, he saw me sitting down, and he winked before leaving to do his work. When my friend Sharon came, I went to sit with her some place else which made it hard for me to see Dear anymore. So I just let it be then. But before realising anything, he came to sit next to me for a minute or two, held my hands once more and just cuddled for a while before continuing his duty. *sigh* and the worst part, I went home early. T.T but hey..I manage to give him a hug eyh? HAHAHAHAHAHA. And he manage to plant another kiss on my cheek. :D after that we just continued texting. However, his credit was gonna expired by midnight so we said our goodbyes early. But crazy insane Dear went to buy credit at 2 in the morning!!! At 7-Eleven!! And texted me. =.=" Some screws must have gone lose in his brain. LOL.
The following day was Saturday. :D I attended wedding in the morning. Oh no wait, I didn't ATTEND. I SANG. Lol. I was nervous at first since I was out of practice. But I coped with the situation well and I actually enjoyed myself even when I was singing alone and only with the piano. What a fun experience it was. Thank God too that the miscrophone was funtioning well and I could hear myself so brilliantly. HEHE! After that, I went out with mum! Eh wait...OOWWHHH. We went to kampung. Oopsie. Went to see granny again, they had dinner there while I got irritated waiting to go home because I was supposed to attend Phoebe's birthday BBQ dinner. xP AND AGAIN. THERE'S A WORST PART. I got home and mum told me not to go. =.= because no one would send me. T.T because daddy wants me to follow them visit my uncle. -_- but being me. I didn't listen. I told my buddies about it and they came to the rescue. THEY PICKED ME UP! WOOTS! Haizzz...and as usual...parents came to be the party pooper: PICKED ME UP EARLY. Ish. Grrr...
At least I ate all the good food already. xD Thanks to Phoebe's mum. Damn good lamb. To Kavina. Damn good chicken. And to my buddies. Damn good times to see you guys again. Hehehe!
The Sunday came along..... The day before I leave home for Kuala Lumpur. Sobs. We went to eat laksa for breakfast! xDDD Miss it already. In KL there's no good laksa to be found! They're on my MOST WANTED list! Daayyuummm. Lol. After breakfast, we visited gramps at the graveyard. :) Glad to see and feel that he's peaceful. Hehe! I wonder if he's watching my every deeds. :P I'm sure if I could hear him, my ears would be burning from all the nagging. Lol. Miss that old man. :'( haaiizz..THEN THEN! EVENING TIME! I went to church. And Dear came to sit with me. *dreaammy smiillee* it was awkward at first because we were in church and everyone around me was people I know. Plus, the girl who sat next to Dear was a friend of mine. And she didn't know that we were sort of together. :D But Dear didn't seem to care. I sat with him and he toyed with my elbow first. Then I moved my hand to fit his. Hehe! During Homily in mass, we sat closely and listened. And also distracting each other with our own hands. Dear took out my black ring, which was meant to be given to him as a gift but I pretended not to remember because I wasn't sure of it yet but he took it off anyways and wore it on his finger. Then he took off his ring and tried to slot it into my ring finger - y'know..where the marriage ring is meant to be put at? - I was surprised by that but I couldn't help laughing coz my fingers were so fat it couldn't fit his ring. I helped him out with it though. I put the ring into my pinky instead. It fit perfectly. Hehehe! We wore each other's ring throughout mass and he held my hand as he did that thing with his thumb again. My heart sort of sank when we said "Peace be with you" to each other. He hugged me and pecked my cheek and I suddenly realised that this wasn't going to happen anymore as soon as I leave. I was gonna miss him. So then my mood was suddenlly shaky.
Fortunately, he still made me smile. During the "Our Father" where usually people would join hands and sing it, Dear took mine and intertwined our fingers and we sang together. Such a cute memory for me. Even more sweet to think of was when the prayer ended, we didn't really let go of our hands. We held it there for a moment, as if trying to capture that very moment. As if not wanting to let go but we did anyways. It wasn't the place and time to hold hands while we stood. Lol. Finally, the end came along. Like every story has an end, mine did too. Dear had to go immediately. He didn't want to keep his parents waiting. He stood there looking at me sadly and I looked back with crushed heart. Without helping myself to it, I hugged him willingly. I kept him in my arms a little longer than usual then whispered "I'm gonna miss you" as he said the same to me. Before he let go of me, he kissed my right cheek then my neck softer than he usually would. It expressed the sadness to me. It meant goodbye to me. *sigh* Then I told him to keep my ring and made him take it even when he refused a couple of times. LOL. :) Eventually, he was gone from my sight. :'(
And eventually, Monday took over and my sadness was beyond BEYOND. *super sigh* I was getting ready, packing up, texting him and just moping about the fact that i'm leaving home for the second time. ><" Dear noticed the sadness in my text messages and he tried to make me smile. Hehehe..it didn't quite work though but at least he was present in the phone even when not physically. The only time he manage to make me smile was when he told me he was wearing the ring I gave. He was wearing it and he wasn't scared to show it off. I blushed like crazy and smiled to myself then. With that, I felt slightly better and had the confidence to leave, and come back maybe in 6 months time. It's not long right? I hope not. *sssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*
There goes my memories..
Moving on. I was brought to kampung! Doggies! Awwwwwwwwwwwwhhhh..:D But I didn't stay long of course. I was tired but when we reached home, mum was like "let's go buy you a new shoes". Why of course i'm interested. She seldom says that okay. HEHEHE! So I went, while texting dear. He was sad that I wasn't with him. But what was there to do right? Haizz..but surprisingly his dental wasn't as long as he expected. It was only awhile. Hrmm. Even I was surprised. :D Then he wanted to come over to where me and my mum was shopping! Crazy right?! LMAO! xD But he didn't of course. Coz I was already leaving. :P Then Friday came along. I was supposed to go lunch with him. But after arguing with mum over the phone about the lunch thingy (I was out breakfast with my girls that morning. HEHE), it was cancelled once again. Aren't mother's annoying?? And get this: MUM ASKED WHETHER LUNCH WAS STILL ON WHEN I GOT HOME. =.= Imagine the irritation I felt that moment. Geez. I could kill a cow! Grr..but yeah..I chilled. Coz she said she was gonna let me go to Spring to chaperone the 2 kids on a movie. And that's when I told Dear about it. And he went there for a short time to meet up with me. It was unbelievable for me. I didn't think that i'd ever even make time to see him. *sigh* Even funnier, I didn't think i'd get my first hug in front of starbucks and in front of 2 kids (my bro and cousin) ==" LOL. But I liked the feeling. Dear was warm and had a tough tug when he hugs. Heeeeeeeeeeeee~ *blush blush* And he smelled nice. :P Not the cologne-ish smell. Just you know..normal. Him. Homey. Hrmm...=)
Only one problem. He's got damn cold hands la! LMAO! But that wasn't any issue for me. I just y'know..like the way his thumb would swirl around the top of my thumb when he held my hand. He did that when he took my hand as we walked in the mall. He did the same thing when he managed to take a short break from his duty that night during High School Idol. He was so busy we couldn't really spend time together. But once in a while he would show up to smile. When I entered the school hall that Friday night, he saw me sitting down, and he winked before leaving to do his work. When my friend Sharon came, I went to sit with her some place else which made it hard for me to see Dear anymore. So I just let it be then. But before realising anything, he came to sit next to me for a minute or two, held my hands once more and just cuddled for a while before continuing his duty. *sigh* and the worst part, I went home early. T.T but hey..I manage to give him a hug eyh? HAHAHAHAHAHA. And he manage to plant another kiss on my cheek. :D after that we just continued texting. However, his credit was gonna expired by midnight so we said our goodbyes early. But crazy insane Dear went to buy credit at 2 in the morning!!! At 7-Eleven!! And texted me. =.=" Some screws must have gone lose in his brain. LOL.
The following day was Saturday. :D I attended wedding in the morning. Oh no wait, I didn't ATTEND. I SANG. Lol. I was nervous at first since I was out of practice. But I coped with the situation well and I actually enjoyed myself even when I was singing alone and only with the piano. What a fun experience it was. Thank God too that the miscrophone was funtioning well and I could hear myself so brilliantly. HEHE! After that, I went out with mum! Eh wait...OOWWHHH. We went to kampung. Oopsie. Went to see granny again, they had dinner there while I got irritated waiting to go home because I was supposed to attend Phoebe's birthday BBQ dinner. xP AND AGAIN. THERE'S A WORST PART. I got home and mum told me not to go. =.= because no one would send me. T.T because daddy wants me to follow them visit my uncle. -_- but being me. I didn't listen. I told my buddies about it and they came to the rescue. THEY PICKED ME UP! WOOTS! Haizzz...and as usual...parents came to be the party pooper: PICKED ME UP EARLY. Ish. Grrr...
At least I ate all the good food already. xD Thanks to Phoebe's mum. Damn good lamb. To Kavina. Damn good chicken. And to my buddies. Damn good times to see you guys again. Hehehe!
The Sunday came along..... The day before I leave home for Kuala Lumpur. Sobs. We went to eat laksa for breakfast! xDDD Miss it already. In KL there's no good laksa to be found! They're on my MOST WANTED list! Daayyuummm. Lol. After breakfast, we visited gramps at the graveyard. :) Glad to see and feel that he's peaceful. Hehe! I wonder if he's watching my every deeds. :P I'm sure if I could hear him, my ears would be burning from all the nagging. Lol. Miss that old man. :'( haaiizz..THEN THEN! EVENING TIME! I went to church. And Dear came to sit with me. *dreaammy smiillee* it was awkward at first because we were in church and everyone around me was people I know. Plus, the girl who sat next to Dear was a friend of mine. And she didn't know that we were sort of together. :D But Dear didn't seem to care. I sat with him and he toyed with my elbow first. Then I moved my hand to fit his. Hehe! During Homily in mass, we sat closely and listened. And also distracting each other with our own hands. Dear took out my black ring, which was meant to be given to him as a gift but I pretended not to remember because I wasn't sure of it yet but he took it off anyways and wore it on his finger. Then he took off his ring and tried to slot it into my ring finger - y'know..where the marriage ring is meant to be put at? - I was surprised by that but I couldn't help laughing coz my fingers were so fat it couldn't fit his ring. I helped him out with it though. I put the ring into my pinky instead. It fit perfectly. Hehehe! We wore each other's ring throughout mass and he held my hand as he did that thing with his thumb again. My heart sort of sank when we said "Peace be with you" to each other. He hugged me and pecked my cheek and I suddenly realised that this wasn't going to happen anymore as soon as I leave. I was gonna miss him. So then my mood was suddenlly shaky.
Fortunately, he still made me smile. During the "Our Father" where usually people would join hands and sing it, Dear took mine and intertwined our fingers and we sang together. Such a cute memory for me. Even more sweet to think of was when the prayer ended, we didn't really let go of our hands. We held it there for a moment, as if trying to capture that very moment. As if not wanting to let go but we did anyways. It wasn't the place and time to hold hands while we stood. Lol. Finally, the end came along. Like every story has an end, mine did too. Dear had to go immediately. He didn't want to keep his parents waiting. He stood there looking at me sadly and I looked back with crushed heart. Without helping myself to it, I hugged him willingly. I kept him in my arms a little longer than usual then whispered "I'm gonna miss you" as he said the same to me. Before he let go of me, he kissed my right cheek then my neck softer than he usually would. It expressed the sadness to me. It meant goodbye to me. *sigh* Then I told him to keep my ring and made him take it even when he refused a couple of times. LOL. :) Eventually, he was gone from my sight. :'(
And eventually, Monday took over and my sadness was beyond BEYOND. *super sigh* I was getting ready, packing up, texting him and just moping about the fact that i'm leaving home for the second time. ><" Dear noticed the sadness in my text messages and he tried to make me smile. Hehehe..it didn't quite work though but at least he was present in the phone even when not physically. The only time he manage to make me smile was when he told me he was wearing the ring I gave. He was wearing it and he wasn't scared to show it off. I blushed like crazy and smiled to myself then. With that, I felt slightly better and had the confidence to leave, and come back maybe in 6 months time. It's not long right? I hope not. *sssssssiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*
There goes my memories..
Thursday, March 3, 2011
I'm coming home in 2 weeks!
BOOYAH! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I'm missing Kuching peeps like hell. I'm not indicating in any way that it's bad here in Kuala Lumpur, but it's just not what I have back home. You know how it feels like to have home close to the heart right? Warm fuzzy feeling, smelly pillow, lovely friends whom you grew up with and well, mommy and daddy. :D Oh wait, and suummboodeeee...HEHE!
Woots! Anyways, there's the bad part in coming home as well. I gotta see my original slip of SPM result. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE. =.= And also, I haven't finish the St Joseph's choir score. *sigh* I've got so much assignment lately and work, damn, by the time I get home i'm like restless and I just need to get some rest. I pray to God that i'll finish it up within this week which I have doubts I will because I got exams up in 2 weeks and also my folio to hand in. ><'
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.
HAIZ...
I'm missing Kuching peeps like hell. I'm not indicating in any way that it's bad here in Kuala Lumpur, but it's just not what I have back home. You know how it feels like to have home close to the heart right? Warm fuzzy feeling, smelly pillow, lovely friends whom you grew up with and well, mommy and daddy. :D Oh wait, and suummboodeeee...HEHE!
Woots! Anyways, there's the bad part in coming home as well. I gotta see my original slip of SPM result. DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE. =.= And also, I haven't finish the St Joseph's choir score. *sigh* I've got so much assignment lately and work, damn, by the time I get home i'm like restless and I just need to get some rest. I pray to God that i'll finish it up within this week which I have doubts I will because I got exams up in 2 weeks and also my folio to hand in. ><'
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE.
HAIZ...
Sunday, February 27, 2011
I can't take it any longer
:'( I'm so foolish. I can't take the fact that I haven't been talking to him for 30 hours now. I miss him so blardy loads. I woke up early today. A SUNDAY. Coz I couldn't sleep. Probably upset that my phone hasn't shown any messages yet. I was on the verge of tears battling whether to text him or to even send him a message on Facebook. I JUST REFUSE TO DO IT. I'M LIKE KILLING MYSELF. =.="
Sobss...I wonder if he's awake. :(
Sobss...I wonder if he's awake. :(
Saturday, February 26, 2011
The Long Wait
There was this girl. She's just an average teen who lives life the way other people does. However, she doesn't know an ant mind about love. She thought she knows. But actually, she only pretends to know. She craves to have a man in her life; tall, charming, hot, meant to be - but that's quite impossible right? I mean, the most you'd get with the guy would be a date in the bar and probably a one night stand. LOL. I was just joking there okay? No harsh feeling. What I meant to point out is that having that kind of charming guys is not very possible. It's possible, but maybe very few times.
So, this girl, she finally met a guy when she left hometown. Okay, I mean, she met the guy a long time before, but she never noticed that they actually had feelings for each other. Until the day she left home, and he popped up in her chatbox sending regards. Without feeling any butterflies she replied him back her regards. It was a normal thing to do right? Friends to friends saying hello after a long time of departure. But the funny thing that came after that was the guy asked for her number. She was weirded out for a moment because it made her wonder why he suddenly wanted her number. All those while she was back home, meeting up with him for some activities, he never bothered asking for it. He never even bothered to give her a look to smile sincerely. He was this bossy guy with a nasty attitude behind his ass but yet cute in a nice way. Heck, who's not attracted to dimples right?
So she relaxed and told herself that maybe finally he wanted to be actual friends. Hence, she gave her number away to this mysterious long lost not so close friend. A few minutes after that, they chat cheerfully as if they've done it a billion times which is actually a lie coz they've never chat before, and then he texted her saying that's his number. A paradoxical moment occurred to her when she opened her inbox. She cursed for a moment then she wondered to her right mind why she even had butterflies receiving his text message. She was worried by then but she again, dismissed it. She texted him back and with no doubt in her mind about their friendship, they texted through the phone and also chat online. Some people may find it strange to sms and chat at the same time to the same person when actually, they're talking about the same shit. However, for these two friends, they seem to take it as if talking in 2 different network meant talking in a different world with different emotions set to it.
Eventually, the normal talking became sweet talks. The girl accidently called him "Dear", by which she used to call all her friends whom she's comfortable with. She was comfortable with him, but she wasn't really intending to call him that just yet coz it may seem weird. But her fingers were impossible to be stopped when she's tapping onto her cell phone. It'll immediately click the send button after typing. Therefore, what was sent remained sent. She didn't regret it though. She was just jittery about how he would react. She wondered if he would take it personally and she found out that he didn't. In fact, he responded by calling her "Sayang" after a few rounds of those sweet callings. She was smiling madly when she read that. Butterflies, fidgeting; the feeling of higness when you feel like you LIKE someone. And she snapped out of it. She asked herself whether she liked the guy. Why won't she admit it to herself? She questioned herself so much until one day she's had enough of it. She doesn't want to be played with if that's the case. She did what was right for her that time.
She told him the honest truth of how she felt this friendship was leading to.
And he replied with the same emotion as her. He was clueless why they were chatting that way. He knew they connected. He knew he may have feelings for her but he may not want to admit it to himself as well. They were both at the same situation. So this girl, she told him that she didn't want it all to go away. She wants to keep liking him coz it was right at that time. She seemed to have accepted the fact that she may want him to accept that she likes him in that way. And she seemed to have accepted the fact that he likes her in that sense too. Both parties are at a win-win situation but both parties are confused to how to move on with it. Such a cliche love tale ain't it? Okay fine, not love then. LIKE tale.
So he told her, in a cool manner, respecting her every angle of view, that maybe they should try this new found relationship slowly. They'd give it a try for 2 months then maybe get together when everything seemed fine. The girl for one was upset in her heart because she was down with the fact that she away from home which meant she was away from him. How could something new work out with a person when they're miles apart? But this guy gave her some hopes. He made her believe that it can be worked out and it can be fixed between the two. At some point, the girl may have hopes that he came to the state she was in to study there so they could both be together. But she thought rasionally again, she made herself brave. Her mind chanted that if this relationship was able to work out the way they planned, then they could work out anything together. Yes, absence makes the heart grows fonder but absence also brings temptations in anyhow. If they were able to withstand that temptation when away from each other, they're sure to be able to trust in each other in such relationship. It could work out. I will. At least that's what she told herself.
Hence, things move on from there. There were some pitstops where they would worry too much over each other or even let jealousy set in sometimes but each person managed to control their feelings. They would advice one another that they're just joking and just giving the thrill to cause trouble between their spark. And also at some point, it may seem like they're already together officially when they're actually not. The girl tends to think that she's probably falling in love with him but told herself no again. She keeps saying that, NO. Why, she doesn't know. Even when the guy called her up one day and told her "I love you", she wouldn't say it back. She stopped herself. She doesn't want to say it back. Not on the phone at least. She wants to wait. She wants to know if her feelings were real.
And until today, she still doesn't know. She only knows that she blushes everytime he teases her, everytime he calls her "Darling" and everytime he makes her feel like he's just by her side holding her hand. It's a wonder how she manages to imagine him there sometimes but most of the time, she makes herself miss him too much coz she really wants him with her. She wants him cuddling her in hugs, she wants him smiling at her and laughing with her, she wants him there. Isn't it crazy?
The other crazy story would be them deciding not to talk, chat or even sms each other for one full day. And they started during the evening of the day before until now. There's about 9 hours left before the game of not talking ends. What she plans is to not even text him when the game ends. But she knows it's gonna kill her. She knows she's gonna ache in pain when he texts her to say that the game is over. But she wants him to call. So that's still the plan in her mind. What's she gonna do? She's confuse. And missing him. And staring at her phone half the time more than she's supposed to and stalking him so much on his Facebook just wondering what he's feeling like right now. He did post that it would a long day and that made her smile in glory. She was half hoping that he would give up the game and let her win it. She wanted to see that sulk in his face, hear it in his voice and maybe give him a good long hug when she comes back to her hometown in 2 weeks time.
This story is going no where. -.- I'm missing him. SHIT. ><" *Sigh* Stupid game. GRR.
So, this girl, she finally met a guy when she left hometown. Okay, I mean, she met the guy a long time before, but she never noticed that they actually had feelings for each other. Until the day she left home, and he popped up in her chatbox sending regards. Without feeling any butterflies she replied him back her regards. It was a normal thing to do right? Friends to friends saying hello after a long time of departure. But the funny thing that came after that was the guy asked for her number. She was weirded out for a moment because it made her wonder why he suddenly wanted her number. All those while she was back home, meeting up with him for some activities, he never bothered asking for it. He never even bothered to give her a look to smile sincerely. He was this bossy guy with a nasty attitude behind his ass but yet cute in a nice way. Heck, who's not attracted to dimples right?
So she relaxed and told herself that maybe finally he wanted to be actual friends. Hence, she gave her number away to this mysterious long lost not so close friend. A few minutes after that, they chat cheerfully as if they've done it a billion times which is actually a lie coz they've never chat before, and then he texted her saying that's his number. A paradoxical moment occurred to her when she opened her inbox. She cursed for a moment then she wondered to her right mind why she even had butterflies receiving his text message. She was worried by then but she again, dismissed it. She texted him back and with no doubt in her mind about their friendship, they texted through the phone and also chat online. Some people may find it strange to sms and chat at the same time to the same person when actually, they're talking about the same shit. However, for these two friends, they seem to take it as if talking in 2 different network meant talking in a different world with different emotions set to it.
Eventually, the normal talking became sweet talks. The girl accidently called him "Dear", by which she used to call all her friends whom she's comfortable with. She was comfortable with him, but she wasn't really intending to call him that just yet coz it may seem weird. But her fingers were impossible to be stopped when she's tapping onto her cell phone. It'll immediately click the send button after typing. Therefore, what was sent remained sent. She didn't regret it though. She was just jittery about how he would react. She wondered if he would take it personally and she found out that he didn't. In fact, he responded by calling her "Sayang" after a few rounds of those sweet callings. She was smiling madly when she read that. Butterflies, fidgeting; the feeling of higness when you feel like you LIKE someone. And she snapped out of it. She asked herself whether she liked the guy. Why won't she admit it to herself? She questioned herself so much until one day she's had enough of it. She doesn't want to be played with if that's the case. She did what was right for her that time.
She told him the honest truth of how she felt this friendship was leading to.
And he replied with the same emotion as her. He was clueless why they were chatting that way. He knew they connected. He knew he may have feelings for her but he may not want to admit it to himself as well. They were both at the same situation. So this girl, she told him that she didn't want it all to go away. She wants to keep liking him coz it was right at that time. She seemed to have accepted the fact that she may want him to accept that she likes him in that way. And she seemed to have accepted the fact that he likes her in that sense too. Both parties are at a win-win situation but both parties are confused to how to move on with it. Such a cliche love tale ain't it? Okay fine, not love then. LIKE tale.
So he told her, in a cool manner, respecting her every angle of view, that maybe they should try this new found relationship slowly. They'd give it a try for 2 months then maybe get together when everything seemed fine. The girl for one was upset in her heart because she was down with the fact that she away from home which meant she was away from him. How could something new work out with a person when they're miles apart? But this guy gave her some hopes. He made her believe that it can be worked out and it can be fixed between the two. At some point, the girl may have hopes that he came to the state she was in to study there so they could both be together. But she thought rasionally again, she made herself brave. Her mind chanted that if this relationship was able to work out the way they planned, then they could work out anything together. Yes, absence makes the heart grows fonder but absence also brings temptations in anyhow. If they were able to withstand that temptation when away from each other, they're sure to be able to trust in each other in such relationship. It could work out. I will. At least that's what she told herself.
Hence, things move on from there. There were some pitstops where they would worry too much over each other or even let jealousy set in sometimes but each person managed to control their feelings. They would advice one another that they're just joking and just giving the thrill to cause trouble between their spark. And also at some point, it may seem like they're already together officially when they're actually not. The girl tends to think that she's probably falling in love with him but told herself no again. She keeps saying that, NO. Why, she doesn't know. Even when the guy called her up one day and told her "I love you", she wouldn't say it back. She stopped herself. She doesn't want to say it back. Not on the phone at least. She wants to wait. She wants to know if her feelings were real.
And until today, she still doesn't know. She only knows that she blushes everytime he teases her, everytime he calls her "Darling" and everytime he makes her feel like he's just by her side holding her hand. It's a wonder how she manages to imagine him there sometimes but most of the time, she makes herself miss him too much coz she really wants him with her. She wants him cuddling her in hugs, she wants him smiling at her and laughing with her, she wants him there. Isn't it crazy?
The other crazy story would be them deciding not to talk, chat or even sms each other for one full day. And they started during the evening of the day before until now. There's about 9 hours left before the game of not talking ends. What she plans is to not even text him when the game ends. But she knows it's gonna kill her. She knows she's gonna ache in pain when he texts her to say that the game is over. But she wants him to call. So that's still the plan in her mind. What's she gonna do? She's confuse. And missing him. And staring at her phone half the time more than she's supposed to and stalking him so much on his Facebook just wondering what he's feeling like right now. He did post that it would a long day and that made her smile in glory. She was half hoping that he would give up the game and let her win it. She wanted to see that sulk in his face, hear it in his voice and maybe give him a good long hug when she comes back to her hometown in 2 weeks time.
This story is going no where. -.- I'm missing him. SHIT. ><" *Sigh* Stupid game. GRR.
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